u/Dry_Seaweed_8191

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Lost at sea.

Im feeling lost. My feelings for you are not fading. At first after our breakup, I saw them fading in the distant water. I really thought they would go away. But over time, the thought of you got stronger. I cant escape you. I see you in everyone and everything. Ive focused my life and energy on other things. Ive had so many distractions from our memories. As years went on I seen you had moved away I thought to myself, this is it. He most likely will never move back and I was surely wrong. My thoughts of you intensified around old territory. Memories of me and you. Maybe I shouldn't be running anymore. I decided to move back to mt. Then I thought maybe he mentioned me on reddit, bam. Saw that post. I came across your mind. Surely you knew I would eventually move back, and I supposed you had the same idea. I saw you at my job a few months ago. My heart felt like it was going to explode. Now I feel like im drowing. Im drowing in my emotions, my memories, my past mistakes. Theres nothing but time to think here alone with my thoughts and regrets. Nothing to distract me. You wanna know where your heart is? Look to see the last place it wonders at night. Who's face do you see? I feel lost at sea.

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u/Dry_Seaweed_8191 — 10 days ago
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My obsession with you is insane. I had to block you for my own insanity and delusion. I miss how things used to be before I hurt you and broke us. Knowing I can never change anything, I need to stop with this obsession that you'd forgive me one day. You have moved on, you are happy. I am happy. Its not healthy to constantly look at your socials, messaging you. Looking for you. Its not healthy to like your pictures, hoping youd reach out to me for closure. I want you to know I dont hate you. I never will. I also wont ever forget you. I know we are both in the same state now, which is hard. You obviously do not want to rekindle or give closure, which is fine. That's your choice, im not saying I deserve it. Ive tried everything to lose the thought of you. Ive tried everything to stop beating myself up for how badly I treated you. All the drama and heartache in the short time we were together. Whether you listen or not, I really am sorry. After seeing that post about me, I was probably never meant to see it. I realized you posted it right before you moved back here to mt. You probably thought about me. I hope it's helped you get over me. And even though, our connection felt soul, I was young and stupid. I have changed and grew. I really hope you are happy because you deserve it! ❤️ I need to get over you. I am trying my best.

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u/Dry_Seaweed_8191 — 12 days ago