I hate my face so much that I sabotage every connection before it even starts.
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I really feel ugly about my whole existence.
I've felt so ugly in my life that I don't even want to see my face in the mirror sometimes.
Whenever I start talking with someone and we vibe, and then suddenly they ask for a picture, I just sabotage myself, etc. Instantly, the thought comes to my head: what if she blocks me the moment she sees my ugly face? This has happened a few times too. The tone completely changed after seeing my face.
What do I not like about my face? Big forehead. Crooked nose. I have a DNS. Weird teeth. Skin not smooth. Too thick lips. Face fat. I look older than my age. I don’t know how to fix all this. I have done skincare, I have lost weight, but my problem is not getting resolved. I am not able to get my confidence back.
Because of my insecurities that I feel because of my physical features, my career is getting disturbed. I feel very, very inferior to people. I am not able to build good connections because of it. I feel afraid talking to women. I feel afraid of showing myself. The moment they ask for a picture, I just start sabotaging.
How do I even fix myself? I'm so tired of living like this. Always hiding. Always running. Always feeling sad for myself. I don't want to live like this, but I also don't know how to help myself.