u/Dramatic-Cup6098

Hello so I found porn at around at 12, then covid came along and I got more into it. This is where I discovered feet worship porn and that lead to femdom. Now it’s got to the point where I have paid girls online to degrade me and use me with their feet, I feel disgusting that I’m even into this and actually do it. I don’t send much money but I will send some here and there, it’s not a daily occurrence. However I am still in the loop of watching fem/findom content and it’s messing me up badly

I’m 19 and am fairly new to findom so to speak, I haven’t done much sends in total. I am just triggered by feet and also the findom brats on twitter, this leads me to going onto discord and talking with dommes like this and here and there I will cave in and actually send them money. I need help, how do I stop wanting this, it feels great in the moment like I was meant to do this but after it feels so shallow. Pls help

Hello I want to be transparent and honest in this post, so I have an addiction to PMO which is entirely based on findom, findom content, femdom, feet. I had came across this as early as 16 I believe and I had mainly found it due to watching feet and then basic femdom content. That would just be the start, when I was 17 I found twitter which is now X.

This is where I was started to be introduced to the findom side of stuff, I never could view myself actually sending someone money so I would just get off to the content so to speak. I eventually saw a domme/foot model on twitter and really liked her feet so I was interested in her she had a lot of followers and was popular.

One day (I’m still 17 at this point) I decided to send her $20 just because I wondered why people send money when they can just see the content for free? So I done that and I didnt even dm her, I kinda just wanted to do it for the sake of it and idk why. After that I just decided to delete twitter and then I didn’t go back to that for a while.

Now I’m 18 and I’m still watching femdom and feet content but I am not too interested in findom. However one day I found out about findom on discord, I was using it at the time for gaming and some friends. This is where things have got bad for me. I would dm a lot of dommes on discord and some of them were even my age and I found it super hot, at this point I’m not even sending because I didn’t have a job at the time. I didn’t even feel the need to, some of them would talk to me for free and some were genuinely into the stuff I was into.

So now I am 19 and I have a job and stuff and I think in total I have spent 500 - 600 on findom total. This is scattered across a year maybe a bit less. I do just wanna quit it, because even when I am not doing a send I am still messaging dommes, making new accounts on discord. In the last month I talked to a domme I rlly liked and I sent her 150 which is the most I have ever sent btw I would only do small 20,25,30 tributes and call that a relapse then try to quit again. After I sent her that money it didn’t go well I regretted it so badly and the guilt and shame was immense. I have a weird desire to feel owned or ruined but when I finally nut I just feel so bad about it. I have never done sends and then just stayed on discord, I would delete it and the account also. Then go some days and come back on a new one, it’s terrible. I want to quit, i feel like I am going to do sends again, I haven’t done one in a while but still getting off to it all.