u/Desperate_Cicada_408

Planning on killing myself either this year or next year. I told my Mom I'm dead serious. I've been through antidepressant withdrawal cold turkey off Paxil at 18 years old. I have 2 autoimmune diseases both Hashimoto's and Celiac and my life is fucking ruined. Every single day is torture. I tell my Mom daily now that if nothing improves then I'm 100% working on a suicide plan once I get money. Once I get a job I will work on a plan. I don't care what anyone online or offline has to say about it. Canceled my therapist appointment, don't care to talk to that guy, not helping. I take Synthroid, it isn't helping. Recently got Tirosint thyroid medication and that's not helping. I am planning on starting a suicide plan as soon as I get some money. I need to get my Celiac disease re-tested since it was only through a blood test. My life sucks and it's pure unending torture to be alive everyday. Good luck out there guys. I'm planning on dying as soon as I can. Been depressed for 8 years straight since graduating high school in 2018, life has been total shit since then, probably gonna hang myself.

26yr old male, 220lbs, taking Synthroid 125 and I'm a fucking zombie everyday. I've had horrible issues with sleep ever since getting hypothyroidism and taking thyroid medication since 2018. I either get no sleep or very poor quality sleep. I have a very shitty metabolism on Synthroid and am wondering if anyone feels the same. My metabolism sucks ass on Synthroid 125, it's not enough. Feels like I have no stomach acid. Libido is non-existent unless I consume a good amount of caffeine . Feel like shit everyday. The only exercise I do is going on long walks. My stomach is constantly big / bulgy everyday, my nipples have been fat for years now - gynecomastia. Big fucking stomach that never goes down unless I fast for hours with water or coffee. Taking fish oil helps some, not enough. Bought some Betaine HCL and even that isn't helping. Testostone consistently in the 300s, vitamin d was low at 27, doubt my stomach could even fucking absorb a supplement.

This is the classic feeling like shit on Synthroid post and no idea why people ride so fucking hard for T4-only on this subreddit even though we're all suffering on it??? I can't do anything anymore. I'm so fucking fatigued i might as well die. Did an at-home sleep test and it just said mild sleep apnea. I've been unemployed for 5 years now.

I've been stuck in a daily ocd rut obsessing over whether to de-google or not and I don't know where else to go with this information, over 2 years now. I can't get myself to change my emails or to commit fully even though I want to start a journey on digital privacy. I've seen tons of Google ads and another thing running in my head while using google is to not use any social media. Every day I wake up and tell myself I'm going to de-google but never do it and remain stuck. I know it's ridiculous but would like people's input.

- De-googling plan: using reddit, on phone: fennec browser, f droid app, here we go maps, fossify calendar, proton mail and tutamail, keeping google play store for updates.

- I don't know that much about digital privacy either. Have heard some stuff here and there. I am on Windows 10 on my PC because my computer is too old for Windows 11. I've tried going to Linux but can't play Overwatch so that's kinda fucked.

Really stuck with my tech stuff and wondering if I should just throw in the fucking towel and move on or should I try to de-google and get it going.

I'm a 26yr old male, 211lbs. Taking Synthroid 125 and this medication does nothing for me. Does anyone else feel the same? I mean literally this medication doesn't do shit and I've been taking Synthroid for at least 4 years now.

26yr old male, around 211lbs. Taking Synthroid 125 and 4 fish oil. Does anyone else feel like their metabolism is almost non-existent on Synthroid? I mean this seriously. I take my medication everyday I get up with a tall glass of water and wait at least an hour before eating and NOTHING. Have been taking Synthroid for about 4 years now, it's not helping! My metabolism is completely shot. My stomach feels like it's not producing any stomach acid at all! I've had such bad heartburn in the past that I got a damaged esophagus - Barrett's Esophagus, which the gastro told me is extremely rare in younger people. I feel like I have no stomach acid. Walking, caffeine and fish oil all do so much more for me than Synthroid. It feels like I'm taking candy taking this drug and my metabolism should be very good at 26. Am very frustrated and will be looking for some other thyroid drug to be on. Have tried other thyroid drugs in the past.

- No stomach acid (Betaine HCL from NOW isn't working)

- Chronic fatigue

- Mood swings

- Dry everything, skin, cold mouth, eyes, hair, etc.

- No motivation

- Brain fog, can't interpret shows anymore

- Exercise intolerance, no adrenaline, no energy

- Low testosterone in the 300s

- No morning wood / almost no sex drive

Going to a new endocrinologist soon and if she can't help I'm going straight to a functional medicine doctor. Down vote all you want. I'll keep spreading the word and sharing how I'm doing in the future.

I know what people are going to say on here, give the medication time, change your dose, etc. I've been on Synthroid 125 for about 5 years now and this medication just doesn't work. I got out of bed today feeling sick and dizzy once again, having to stabilize myself on a wall or over my dresser waiting for my body to calm down to guzzle down my large glass of water for my Synthroid pill. This is everyday, take my pill when getting up, proceed to have zero fucking energy all day long, am a complete fucking zombie if I don't consume at least 400mg of caffeine. I've got other bonuses being on this drug so long, my metabolism feels almost non-existent, caffeine and walking provide much more value, added weird heartburn as a benefit which I've never had before, constant sleep issues ever since getting hypothyroidism back in 2018, mood issues, chronic fatigue, brain fog, etc.

I'm going to a new endocrinologist soon and if she can't help me then I've got 2 options, it's either quit the medication or go to someone else. I'm really tired of feeling like complete ass all the time and then coming on here and people saying, "it's a tiny pill to take daily", "millions of people are on Synthroid / Levo and are just fine", anyone that's on these subreddits isn't "just fine".

I'm a 220lb 26yr old male. Vitamin d is low and testosterone keeps showing up in the 300s. Also have Celiac disease. If I can't get any help then I fear I won't be able to work again, been unemployed for 5 years.

I know what people are going to say on here, give the medication time, change your dose, etc. I've been on Synthroid 125 for about 5 years now and this medication just doesn't work. I got out of bed today feeling sick and dizzy once again, having to stabilize myself on a wall or over my dresser waiting for my body to calm down to guzzle down my large glass of water for my Synthroid pill. This is everyday, take my pill when getting up, proceed to have zero fucking energy all day long, am a complete fucking zombie if I don't consume at least 400mg of caffeine. I've got other bonuses being on this drug so long, my metabolism feels almost non-existent, caffeine and walking provide much more value, added weird heartburn as a benefit which I've never had before, constant sleep issues ever since getting hypothyroidism back in 2018, mood issues, chronic fatigue, brain fog, etc.

I'm going to a new endocrinologist soon and if she can't help me then I've got 2 options, it's either quit the medication or go to someone else. I'm really tired of feeling like complete ass all the time and then coming on here and people saying, "it's a tiny pill to take daily", "millions of people are on Synthroid / Levo and are just fine", anyone that's on these subreddits isn't "just fine".

I'm a 220lb 26yr old male. Vitamin d is low and testosterone keeps showing up in the 300s.Also have Celiac disease. If I can't get any help then I fear I won't be able to work again, been unemployed for 5 years.