So scared about life changing and the potential to be unhappy. So scared about regretting this and being a bad mum. Scared I can’t turn back. Scared this is a mistake. Scared of body changes. Scared of monotony. Scared of birth and procedures. Scared of post partum. Scared of change. Scared of responsibility, scared of raising someone well. Scared of missing my CF life. Scared of not coping. Scared of resenting my child. Scared of missing opportunities for myself. Scared that I’ll never be the same again. Scared I’ll lose myself and just be ‘mum’. I can hardly function.
All my doubts about parenting are looming so large.
I’ve been so scared I’ve always thought ‘you don’t HAVE to do this’ and thought about abortion, but that time limit is ending. So what do I do….
How the fuck does anyone do this