u/DesignerNewspaper699

Just got out of a long term relationship after being cheated on and the hardest part so far is the night time in bed before I fall asleep. Looking for people to talk to that are also night owls (east coast US) that can talk and yap about anything just to keep myself from spiraling in thought. I love reality tv and sitcoms, more pop punk music like Man Overboard but listen to a lot of different genres too. Been playing a lot of cozy games on the Switch like Animal Crossing and Tomodachi Life. Like to read cozy mystery and romcom books. Watch a lot of YouTube and channels like Dropout and Smosh and 2nd Try.

We had a family full of love. We had happiness. We had years and years together. And for months you pretended we were fine and everything was fine but you were checked out. Now I can’t close my eyes without seeing you with her. The deepest parts of my heart and soul were yours and now they’ve been ripped out of me and I can’t breathe. You broke me as a human and you don’t even care. I’m drowning and you aren’t there to save me. And I love you and I hate you so much.

I’ve just had a 9 year relationship end due to infidelity and it was confessed to me that the difference in sex drives was a driving factor. I’ve always had to push myself in relationships to have regular sex because it kind of hurts even with plenty of foreplay and assistance and I also just do not crave sex naturally that often. I am more likely just to masturbate if the mood strikes. Is there something wrong with my libido and is there anyway to work on this going into the future or am I doomed to keep having relationships end because I can’t keep up?