u/Dependent_Lunch3830 — reddlx

I (27M) have been with my partner (24F) for almost 6 years, and every single day is now the same thing. Not a day goes by where I’m Not blamed for something regardless of what it is. She’s unmedicated because she refuses to take her meds and calls me controlling if I try to get her to.
We do what SHE wants, when SHE wants it, otherwise I have to fix another hole in the wall. At this point I could start a drywall company with how often I’m repairing massive holes in walls.
I cannot have any time to myself, the second I sit down it’s “What are you doing right now.” “Go do this.” “I need this done.” While she sits in bed and watches something or scrolls through TikTok on her phone. I’ve lost multiple friends because anytime I try to leave the house and hang with them I’m forced to ditch my own plans because of something she wants. And if I don’t drop everything for her immediately, she threatens my personal belongings.
She doesn’t drive, doesn’t make her own appointments, doesn’t do any chores, doesn’t take care of the animals that SHE insisted we get.
I have zero time to myself anymore and must be available for her to demand something from. As little as calling across the house to pick up the charger that’s 2 feet from her, to as large as cook her a very specific meal otherwise I’m in for a 2+ hour long fight which consists of her screaming at me about how terrible I am and she could do so much better.
I cannot attempt to pack anything to leave or it’ll set her off, I’ve had to replace 10+ TVs in the past year alone after she shoves or rips them off the wall and god forbid I attempt to stop her from destroying anything, otherwise I get called an abuser. I smacked her once 3 years ago after she cut my shoulder open with a box cutter and she constantly dangles it over my head that she’ll call the cops.
Speaking of cops I now know 7-8 of them by first name after they get called on us after she starts on of her weekly screaming fits at 2am, then I get called white privileged because I’m respectful and able to talk them down from domestic to noise complaints.
She gets to claim that I’m an abuser for attempting to defend myself after having everything from a crystal to a microwave thrown at me.
I want to leave but she registered both of the dogs in her name under a support animal program and threatens to let them run outside free if I even think of trying to leave.
I’ve run out of patience and my own mental
Problems are spiraling. I had to sell my pistol as several nights I found myself entertaining unsavory thoughts in an attempt to be free. Im at my wits end and scared that one of these days im going to do something Ill regret.
Apologies for any spelling mistakes or grammatical errors im writing this sitting on my front porch attempting to calm down after being screamed at for hours.