u/Dependent_Fig8513

is it good?

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Hello I’m 14M with asd spd and mdd I find I feel super depressed and sometimes even worthless during the nights. I don't do anything stupid to myself during the nights but I just get dark so I just relapse on all my mistakes. My brain just saves them all every night. Such help does it, you know, outside of this? If so, what helped? What helped to stop this? I take my meds every day and all that. I just don't know how to stop this. It really annoys me to

All my life I had online and IRL childhood friends that have just a terrible home life and I have a good life. What also hates about having a good life is how classmates and some kids in general say things similar to “ you can’t be sad/

Depressed

Because your life is so good.” Sure, I have all these life benefits, doesn’t mean I still struggle or have bad problems, and don’t get me started with my over empathy problem. It sucks. I put myself in many lives all the time to

To understand how they feel now. If anything can be more screwed up, you thinking if anything is making my depression worse has to be, definitely, this over empathy. It causes me. Surprisingly, I haven't got to a point where I lose who I am, but sometimes I question and feel weird around my family unless other guests are here or guests are at my house. It's a really weird feeling and I hate it. I want to care for people. I want to help people. I just want to help everyone I can, but I can't. It makes me more depressed than I am. How can I stop this? Also, I have ASD + MDD. Please, if you have any advice, please give it. All this makes me feel guilty about life. It’s the same reason when people bully me for being autistic. I can’t find the courage to stand up because I feel like if I do it, I am making their life worse. Please help me.