u/Delicious_Spirit_553

(this is mostly a rant, a vent post about my experience with religion and queerness)

Why would a god create me and then hate me for what I am?

Why would they put on my little mind that "his" love was unconditional but I shouldn't dare to be out of the cishet normative?

Why would a god be a "he"? What do they need gender for? Why would I need a gender?

Why make a confused child cry and beg every night not to be punished for existing?

Existing is a sin and suicide is also one, so they don't want me there but don't want me to take action on it either? What a piece of shit...

The usual way people describe dysphoria is based on the "women/men" gender binary, i always feel outside, using a public restroom is always uncomfortable, I don't think I'm "supposed to go" in any of them, I feel more comfortable with the non binary identity but of course there's no bathroom for people outside the binary

It's so weird to feel judged for go to take a pee on a place that's made for that, why do people even care? Why do I even care??? It's just a restroom and a freaking sign saying "girls" and "boys" shouldn't have this much impact in me...

You're free to use them, just mention me :]

I'm not attempting anything today, I'm actually to tired to even think about anything, this is just something I made so I could let those thoughts out

When I used to write on Wattpad I was contacted by a "fan of my work" he was days away from turning 20 and I was months away to be 14.

I thought it was okey, he was "a little older, but definitely inmature" or so I thought.

I can't even recognize myself as the victim