hi. i’m a 21F. over the last year i’ve struggled so hard with body image. weight, shape, skin, everything. it drove me into an eating disorder. i’m so messed up. my skin had started getting bad beforehand. afterwards my skin got worse. i’m dealing with acne and all types of skin issues i can’t even get into detail of because it’s so much. everything leaves dark marks after healing, so my face is slowly starting to get covered in marks that won’t fade. i developed a lot of unnecessary hair growth. i don’t feel feminine. i struggled hard for months. it brought me into a deep anxious state and a depression i’ve never felt before. i don’t feel AS badly as i did in the middle of it all, but i’m still depressed about it. i don’t feel like a pretty girl. i’m constantly afraid my boyfriend won’t like me anymore because of it. and during my journey recovering from my eating disorder, my acne has gotten worse and my body is changing again. i feel like my body is messed up. everyday i wake up and wait to see how bad it’s going to get throughout the week.. afraid of what people see. afraid of what i see. has anyone dealt with eating disorders, hormonal issues, acne issues, anything like that that has drove you to a depression. i feel hopeless and i don’t know how to do anything to help it.
when it comes to my skin problems.. i’m positive i can’t use any actives or anything for my acne as i believe my skin barrier is damaged to some degree. yes i’ve seen a dermatologist.. she just wants me to go on hormonal medication that i’m not comfortable with. i feel like this is never going to get better.