u/Dear-Way-3737

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Hello everyone I am using habitica for a few days and i want to recruit people to my party Arnish's Party. Join this party and we will grow together. I any one interested please drop below your email id or user name so i can invite you.

Ex-Party Leader,

Party creator,

Arnish Sen.

I am currently 16. I am a male. Born in a lower middle class family. Living in West Bengal India. First time I had suicidal thoughts when i was in grade 4, 7-8 years ago. I asked my father for badminton rackets, he told my mother and she beat the shit out if, that night I tried to strangle myself with a rope in bed and also tried to hold my breath till death but obviously thats would not work. School was the only place I loved. That is until covid happened and lock down came. Then the only place i liked became social media, daydreaming and porn. After covid when school opened I was excited but this time school also became hell. People started call me Pokemon. As everyone reached puberty. I was the shortest person in class(currently 5,5), I look like shit, I look like half Nepali half Bengali my grandma was from Nepal, I was skinny fat, I shutter and my voice is deep so half of the words that comes out of my mouth people dont understand and make fun of.

I dont know why but what ever i speak it sounds like shit not only to me but to everyone. I never really went out of my house and had friends other than school friends. I study in a private English medium school people cant understand me in my own language and English is a foreign language. Even before covid and lockdown i was bullied because of height and being skinny but it was few people only. After covid it was like the whole school is after me. I tried to change like i worked out secretly, studied hard and got 74% in ICSE then changed school.

Now i study in a CBSE school. I took humanities. In previous school a class mate hanged himself during lockdown, he was 10. He was some one everyone envied he had a dream to go to Olympics and win gold. His death surprised us all. I am addicted to social media, porn. I consume a lot of self improvement content, gave myself unachievable dreams and daydream and it somehow keeps me alive. I get suicidal thoughts everyday. I have little to no freedom my mom will decide where i go, what i wear, hairstyle etc,. Now i am in grade 12. I have like 10 suicidal thoughts every day. My family wants me to get at least 90% in 12 CBSE. I only go outside if this house for school and tuitions. Never played any sports in my entire life. I am a very shy person I am the most introverted person you can imagine. I mean i am seeing how hard my parents are working and how much they are sacrificing, they are getting old my father is close to 60 and my mom is like 49 or something but i cant man. I wish i wasn't born. I have a few dreams go to Romantika Uz Beas, La Ultra – The High in Ladakh, learn how to swim, break my shyness and learn how to actually speak. First goal i want achieve this year breaking my shyness which is why i am thinking of opening a youtube channel nobody known i might make some money and can get out of this hell. And next year at February or March i have my class 12 CBSE exams so i need to study too otherwise i think my parents are gonna unalive me. Check out my ride on Strava: https://strava.app.link/wbwKgVKHC1b

I am currently 16. I am a male. Born in a lower middle class family. Living in West Bengal India. First time I had suicidal thoughts when i was in grade 4, 7-8 years ago. I asked my father for badminton rackets, he told my mother and she beat the shit out if, that night I tried to strangle myself with a rope in bed and also tried to hold my breath till death but obviously thats would not work. School was the only place I loved. That is until covid happened and lock down came. Then the only place i liked became social media, daydreaming and porn. After covid when school opened I was excited but this time school also became hell. People started call me Pokemon. As everyone reached puberty. I was the shortest person in class(currently 5,5), I look like shit, I look like half Nepali half Bengali my grandma was from Nepal, I was skinny fat, I shutter and my voice is deep so half of the words that comes out of my mouth people dont understand and make fun of.

I dont know why but what ever i speak it sounds like shit not only to me but to everyone. I never really went out of my house and had friends other than school friends. I study in a private English medium school people cant understand me in my own language and English is a foreign language. Even before covid and lockdown i was bullied because of height and being skinny but it was few people only. After covid it was like the whole school is after me. I tried to change like i worked out secretly, studied hard and got 74% in ICSE then changed school.

Now i study in a CBSE school. I took humanities. In previous school a class mate hanged himself during lockdown, he was 10. He was some one everyone envied he had a dream to go to Olympics and win gold. His death surprised us all. I am addicted to social media, porn. I consume a lot of self improvement content, gave myself unachievable dreams and daydream and it somehow keeps me alive. I get suicidal thoughts everyday. I have little to no freedom my mom will decide where i go, what i wear, hairstyle etc,. Now i am in grade 12. I have like 10 suicidal thoughts every day. My family wants me to get at least 90% in 12 CBSE. I only go outside if this house for school and tuitions. Never played any sports in my entire life. I am a very shy person I am the most introverted person you can imagine. I mean i am seeing how hard my parents are working and how much they are sacrificing, they are getting old my father is close to 60 and my mom is like 49 or something but i cant man. I wish i wasn't born. I have a few dreams go to Romantika Uz Beas, La Ultra – The High in Ladakh, learn how to swim, break my shyness and learn how to actually speak. First goal i want achieve this year breaking my shyness which is why i am thinking of opening a youtube channel nobody known i might make some money and can get out of this hell. And next year at February or March i have my class 12 CBSE exams so i need to study too otherwise i think my parents are gonna unalive me.

Check out my ride on Strava: https://strava.app.link/wbwKgVKHC1b

I am currently 16. I am a male. Born in a lower middle class family in India. Living in West Bengal India. First time I had suicidal thoughts when i was in grade 4, 7-8 years ago. I asked my father for badminton rackets, he told my mother and she beat the shit out if, that night I tried to strangle myself with a rope in bed and also tried to hold my breath till death but obviously thats would not work. School was the only place I loved. That is until covid happened and lock down came. Then the only place i liked became social media, daydreaming and porn. After covid when school opened I was excited but this time school also became hell. People started call me Pokemon. As everyone reached puberty. I was the shortest person in class(currently 5,5), I look like shit, I look like half Nepali half Bengali my grandma was from Nepal, I was skinny fat, I shutter and my voice is deep so half of the words that comes out of my mouth people dont understand and make fun of.

I dont know why but what ever i speak it sounds like shit not only to me but to everyone. I never really went out of my house and had friends other than school friends. I study in a private English medium school people cant understand me in my own language and English is a foreign language. Even before covid and lockdown i was bullied because of height and being skinny but it was few people only. After covid it was like the whole school is after me. I tried to change like i worked out secretly, studied hard and got 74% in ICSE then changed school.

Now i study in a CBSE school. I took humanities. In previous school a class mate hanged himself during lockdown, he was 10. He was some one everyone envied he had a dream to go to Olympics and win gold. His death surprised us all. I am addicted to social media, porn. I consume a lot of self improvement content, gave myself unachievable dreams and daydream and it somehow keeps me alive. I get suicidal thoughts everyday. I have little to no freedom my mom will decide where i go, what i wear, hairstyle etc,. Now i am in grade 12. I have like 10 suicidal thoughts every day. My family wants me to get at least 90% in 12 CBSE. I only go outside if this house for school and tuitions. Never played any sports in my entire life. I am a very shy person I am the most introverted person you can imagine. I mean i am seeing how hard my parents are working and how much they are sacrificing, they are getting old my father is close to 60 and my mom is like 49 or something but i cant man. I wish i wasn't born. I have a few dreams go to Romantika Uz Beas, La Ultra – The High in Ladakh, learn how to swim, break my shyness and learn how to actually speak. First goal i want achieve this year breaking my shyness which is why i am thinking of opening a youtube channel nobody known i might make some money and can get out of this hell. And next year at February or March i have my class 12 CBSE exams so i need to study too otherwise i think my parents are gonna unalive me.
Check out my ride on Strava: https://strava.app.link/wbwKgVKHC1b