im sorry
Iâm sorry, mom and dad, for not becoming the son you deserved. You gave me your time, your trust, your care⊠everything you could. And still, I couldnât turn it into something youâd be proud of.
For the past few years, Iâve been feeling this weight that I donât deserve what youâve done for me. Not because you did anything wrong⊠but because I couldnât do enough with it. That thought keeps coming back again and again.
Even now, while writing this, I feel like I should cry⊠but I canât. Itâs like everything is stuck inside me, and I donât even know how to let it out anymore.
In 10th, I scored 55%, even after preparing. It felt like I failed you there.
In 11th, 66%⊠and instead of fixing things, I stayed the same.
Now in 12th, I donât even know what result will come, and that uncertainty is eating me.
Itâs not just studies. I look at myself and donât see anything Iâm proud of. No strong skills, no real achievements, nothing that makes me feel like Iâve done something right. I tried in my own way, but maybe it wasnât enough⊠or maybe I didnât try the right way.
You both still stand by me, still support me, still hope for me⊠and thatâs what hurts the most, because I feel like I keep falling short of that hope.
Iâm not blaming you. I know this is on me. I just feel like I couldnât become what I was supposed to be.
If thereâs another life, I hope you both get a better child someone who makes things easier for you, someone you donât have to worry about like this.
Iâm sorry⊠and thank you for everything.