🤣😅🥹 He didn’t even seem to be someone I would want to hug irl and I didn’t care. 🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂 Shouldn’t have bitten that 🥦🧸 at the bottom of my gym bag (it was sealed in a packet lol).
Was doing amazingly for 3 months working out 3-5 times a week: usually 4-5 days a week. Was eating well. Was losing weight. Was building muscle. Was doing lots of abs and yoga and strength training and cardio. And walking outside. Was in control of my habits for the most I’ve ever been after a lifetime of struggling with this. Lost about 16 pounds in 3 months and was looking better.
Had a bad week last week. A journal app I was using lost 20 months of data and I’m upset about it- it wasn’t journaling but notes about what I got done daily and appointments and things like that. I got a bad rash on my face and went to doctor. I forget what else happened. I have post concussion syndrome from 9 yrs ago and used the journal as a memory tool. The app support isn’t even responding to email. I started using my iPhone notes app.
Went to a fun movie Friday night and had some snacks and wasn’t too worried about it. Ate a little worse over weekend but nothing terrible.
Missed 5 days at the gym after never missing more than 2-3 days tops.
Stressed about finances and plans to go back to work so thought I’d get some things done from my to do list and try to streamline workouts by doing full body when I go to gym. Smoked 🥦a bit Friday night after not for over two weeks. Don’t have an issue and don’t use it regularly. It was a 1-2 times a month thing only. Then yesterday ran into someone who’s been mean to me all my life. Upset me.
With all the things combined I’m blah and worried I’ll stop working out. It’s fixable. I have 3 months of habit building behind me. Just feel set back and also have rash on forearms from either my yoga mat at home or gym’s. Got medicated cream. Just upsetting and disgusting. It’s nothing serious but it’s making me second guess cleanliness of gym.
Anyhow 🫤 I know it’s exercise that cheers me up so I’ll try to go today and reset. A week ago I felt like nothing would stop me or interfere with my plan. This has happened to me for years where I get 2 months down then quit. Maybe it’s self sabotage. I don’t know.
Tonight in Toronto 🥺 Called Amina’s Services but they came too late- he had already left ….