How do you cope with being related to a narcissist?
Hey, I’d just like to preface this and apologize if my description of things is confusing or vague. I tend to talk I circles and just generally seem to confuse people. If you have any questions or just need more info, please ask! Also sorry in advance if I come across as rude. It’s not intentional. I’m not entirely sure why I come off that way. I do have some theories though.
So, my father is a complete narcissist. He’s an absolute nightmare and even though I cut contact with him multiple years ago, he’s still finding ways to make my life hell from afar. Like he liked to say my mother was an insane and abusive drug addict. He would then, in the same breath, tell me how I was just like my mother. That I was manipulative and selfish among other things. I was eight. He’s that kind of crazy. The courts and police where he lives somehow to be more useless than your average house fly, so he managed to get away with literal crimes with no consequences whatsoever.
I am completely disgusted by the fact that he’s my father. It makes me want to pluck my eyes out so I don’t have to see the physical traits I have that remind me of him, even though they’re smaller than my catalog of social skills. I’m also pretty freaked out by the possibility of turning out like him and hurting others.
Does anyone else deal with this and if so, how do you cope with it? I’ve tried a lot of meditation and self-love stuff and I’ve been doing it for years, but it’s just not helping me. Does anyone have any advice?