u/CryoType0

I can't stop like at all, it's been 3 years since I've been cutting myself and yet I do it every damn day even when everything is fine. It's like a habit which has morphed itself into my routine so now I work like a robot and my body reacts before my mind even has the chance to think. I've been getting therapy for 3 years now and still no improvement, the medication does nothing as well and at this point im hopeless. I hate my mom for taking me to the ICU when I overdosed cause now I have to suffer living just cause the people around me can't handle death. I just wanna go deeper than fat, I just wanna see if I'm more than flesh and bone. I feel so damn empty cause I turned 17 last week and I was supposed to not even make it past 14. I've had bpd tendencies but can't get it diagnosed as I'm still a minor AND NOW THERES NO MORE SPACE LEFT ON MY LEGS I can't even cut my arms anymore cause it's obvious.

I can't stop like at all, it's been 3 years since I've been cutting myself and yet I do it every damn day even when everything is fine. It's like a habit which has morphed itself into my routine so now I work like a robot and my body reacts before my mind even has the chance to think. I've been getting therapy for 3 years now and still no improvement, the medication does nothing as well and at this point im hopeless. I hate my mom for taking me to the ICU when I overdosed cause now I have to suffer living just cause the people around me can't handle death. I just wanna go deeper than fat, I just wanna see if I'm more than flesh and bone. I feel so damn empty cause I turned 17 last week and I was supposed to not even make it past 14. I've had bpd tendencies but can't get it diagnosed as I'm still a minor AND NOW THERES NO MORE SPACE LEFT ON MY LEGS I can't even cut my arms anymore cause it's obvious.