I’m the worst person ever.
I’ve been dating my bf for a couple months now. He’s 23 and I’m 19. He’s my first bf and for a good while ive been very suspicious that he only wants me for intimate purposes… but then we did. And he’s still here. Why is he still here? I’ve been dealing with depression and anxiety my whole life. I’m VERY insecure. And this whole time we’ve been dating I’ve been talking so bad about him. I really like him. But all I do is talk shit about him. I hate myself so fucking much.
I don’t know what to do. I feel so guilty and it hurts my stomach that I just want to throw up.
Do I tell him how bad I’ve been talking about him???? He’s SO nice to me. I don’t understand why he’s so nice. I hate myself so much. I hate this. I’m the worst. I can’t take back anything I’ve said I don’t know what to do. If he was talking like that about me I would probably kms. I’m the worst I’m the worst.