u/Cosser70

HI, new member here, I posted somewhere a few minutes ago though i think i added the post to another members post as a reply, apologies if i did.

I've been on a spending spree since Christmas spent over $40k and have maxed out credit cards. I'm vigilant about managing my moods and watching for any changes. I tried spenders anonymous and while helpful didn't help with the urgency i felt when making purchases. My therapist thinks there's an element of ocd with my spending while my psych nurse thinks it's an uptick in mania. Can anyone with experience weigh in here? I didn't buy anything yesterday and today have a feeling of calm, peace and focus. Am I manic or is it ocd?

I just deleted all the cards I had in my phone along with all the cards I had on Amazon including my corporate card in case I buy something on that and then have to pay my employer for it. I’m following advice I read on here about making it as difficult as possible to buy. I downloaded mallow and wrote a note about something I bought today. Tomorrow is a new day and I’m hopeful! Here’s being able to say I didn’t buy anything this time tomorrow but for now I’m glad I followed through on deleting the cards, when I first read that I really resisted then tried to justify leaving the corporate card on there, it does help though that I’m just home from an Aa meeting and was able to substitute shopping for alcohol in what I was hearing.

I’ve spent over $30k on an unnecessary rehab of my apartment, it started with the bathroom and then moved to the hall, living room and kitchen, all unnecessary and all charged. I feel sick about it and am doing some intensive therapy around my spending. Someone else on here mentioned the mallow app so I downloaded that I was messing around on ChatGPT and ended up buying 3 products it recommended on Amazon, then tried to cancel. Amazon is saying they can’t guarantee cancellation so there’s that. I’m like a woman possessed since the rehab and can’t even go 1 day. I’m trying spenders anonymous and as a recovering alcoholic understand that this uncontrolled spending is like whac a mole with my addictions. I don’t know how I’m going to pay off my credit card I’ve opened up a no interest on balance transfers credit card, will transfer the balance then close that card. I feel utterly hopeless. I also bought the book to buy or not to buy and instead of doing the work I’m playing on chat gpt HELP