u/CortezDavinchi

Is it just me, or does this happen to others? Before you're 'clocked,' or before you let someone know you're trans, they call you 'he/him.' Then, all of a sudden, people start stumbling over their words, and now it's 'she—oops, I mean him.' Once, I had a small crush, right? Before, he didn't even know I was trans. After a couple of days of us talking—keep in mind I'm pretty masc, but when I like to 'kii' and have fun like the gay boys, I get a little flamboyant. As soon as you're flamboyant, people think, 'Oh, that's why you act like that.' Not that they're saying that, but I just know that's what they're thinking. They get comfortable with 'girl,' and not that I don't mind, but now they make it weird, like, 'Oh, I don't mean girl like that.' It gets repetitive.

Lowkey, I didn't care before, but some people swear they're funny. Like, what? But, backtracking to the guy I sorta like, we end up chatting. He tells me he was cracking up at a joke I made earlier, so he's telling another person, 'Hey, why she—I mean he,' and slips up. I played it off, but I lowkey was bothered because he never called me that before. Guess my voice sounds a bit too girly, is what my gender dysphoria is saying to me, lmao. Also, he wasn't even pan or bi or anything like that; he's apparently straight but acts and looks very queer, and my gaydar was going off anyway. I got too attached and also weirded out because he was also using this while I have autism and was lowkey trying to act like me, and I thought it was weird. Anywho, he's blocked. Has anybody experienced half of what I talked about? Lmaooo, I know I was all over the place. I lowkey just wanted to see if people have been through the same. Heyyyy guys 😛😛

So, I met this masc friend at McDonald's with their girlfriend (or boyfriend, I'm not sure). They asked for my number, and we ended up hanging out. The problem is, they're always asking me for money, food, or haircuts, but they never pay me back. Recently, they started asking me about transitioning. The girlfriend acted weird and said "ew" when I mentioned taking T.

They also added me to a group chat where there was some "speculation" about me. I think they probably told everyone I was trans, which I don't think is anyone's business since I'm not trying to be friends or date them. Apparently, they asked the group if I was trans without telling me, and they're just now bringing it up in the chat. I felt offended because they're so quick to ask and be blunt about others but didn't tell me anything. Meanwhile, this person is begging me for money behind the scenes and asking how to get on testosterone. Maybe it's a jealousy thing, I don't know.

Then, the friends in the group chat asked if I was ashamed of being trans. I'm not ashamed, but I don't think it's relevant. I guess since I was a bit flamboyant, they just assumed. Am I overreacting? Oh, and by the way, they're blocked now because as soon as we talked in private, they acted like it wasn't a big deal. What honestly pissed me off was them trying to gaslight me into saying I'm ashamed of being trans, and if I don’t tell anybody, I’d be 'tricking' them, which is complete BS, tbh. Nobody in that GC is even attractive to me by far, nor did I really care to make friends that bad with them. I mean, some of these people are not even in my state, and it’s like, why do I have to walk into every room and tell people that I meet, 'HEY, I’M TRANS,' like that’s all there is to me? Like, cis people don’t have to do this, neither do few gay people. It’s already hard, man, trying to date, and I don’t have any friends, seriously, and I don’t date, so this is just so difficult, and I don’t even like putting myself out there. I’m not a big people person anymore.