Moving to pursue the dream or staying put
I don't usually like to go to reddit to help solve problems because I'm weary of strangers opinions whom I've never met, and whom don't know me. However, this is something I would like some external perspective from.
Every year for the past 7-9 years, I've been wanting to move out to Colorado. I live in the Midwest (mainly WI but now Chicago) but have been visiting the state since I could barely walk. I always saw myself being happy living in the mountains. It started with applying to schools out there when I was in my 20s. Now I am in my 30s, still single, and I have been applying to jobs out there for the past 5-7 years. I am not a big risk taker and cannot bring myself to move without a job offer. I moved to Chicago 2 years ago because I needed a change and found some fun activities in this city. I was laid off abd unemployed when i moved here abd it took me 10 months to find a job. I told myself id give it 1 year to determine if I liked living here. If I did not, I would move to CO. I'm now about to sign a lease for my 3rd year and I can't help but focus on moving out of the city. I'm stressed from my work commute, don't have alot of close friends here, and my job pays well becauae I'm in management, but is not related to my degree. Im also dating someone but feel luke-warm towards the relationship.
Do I stay another year and try to save up money? I am not excited about finding a new apartment here but I know i have to. I'm just anxious all the time wondering what decision to make. I have a one track mind and its extremely difficult to enjoy anything when all i do is think about this. It seems every year I have the same dilemma.