I’m in therapy for depression n my last session went badly because I was super zoned out on my meds n could barely talk. So for the next session I skipped them just for that day so I could be present. This time I was more engaged n my therapist said I seemed much better .. so I told her it might be because I wasn’t feeling as sedated. Then I brought up something that’s been bothering me ‘what if I’m somehow keeping myself stuck in depression like my brain is convincing me I’m depressed n I’m believing it’. She responded by saying that I like attention. I said I don’t, but she kept insisting that I LIKE ATTENTION. Later I mentioned I have a harmless crush on an anime character n she asked “is he in the room with us?” I laughed and said no it’s just imagination. Then suddenly she said I’m not taking my meds properly. I told her I do n it’s basically muscle memory but again she didn’t believe me n said “sorry but I have to tell the doctor to change your meds” n went to tell the doctorn told me not to use my phone till she returns.
I left feeling really confused and kind of invalidated. Has anyone else experienced something like this?