u/Connect-Sport-3330

Last year, when I was 17, I messaged my former coach and told her I thought she was pretty. At first, I didn’t say who I was, but later I told her my name, and she seemed surprised. The conversation continued, and I asked if we could meet at a fast-food place, and “she” agreed.

We talked about things like my future and life, but she never showed up. During the conversation, I said some immature and inappropriate things, like asking for a “360,” which I regret.

Later, I found out that it wasn’t actually my coach I was talking to—it was her son using her phone and pretending to be her. He sent messages and even photos to make it seem like it was really her. He also suggested that she would meet in person and acted like she was going to show up and then cancel, which made the situation confusing and misleading at the time.

When my coach eventually found out, she said it was her son and that the situation was inappropriate. I apologized at the time, and there was no further contact.

Recently, after being diagnosed with anxiety, I started thinking about the situation again and feeling guilty about what I said. I called her work phone once, but there was no answer, and I sent a short apology message. Now I’m worried that I may have made things worse or that I could get into legal trouble or possibly a restraining order

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u/Connect-Sport-3330 — 10 days ago

I miss you mom, it's been nearly two years since you've been gone. Why is life like this. Why did I get bullied so badly? Why did they treat you like that? Why did I ever fall into lust? Why did I ever send that photo? Why did I ever think I'm okay? Why couldn't you stay longer? Why I'm like this? Why can't I make a choice? Why do I want to leave this world but I can't? Why do I care about others? Why do I feel stuck? It hurts so bad mom please just come back please mom. I hate life without you, I hate myself, I can't leave but I wanna leave, I can't leave behind more hurt, mom please, why do I hate myself so much?

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u/Connect-Sport-3330 — 14 days ago