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I just stopped asking God..I dont know what to ask anymore

People judge me saying I ask God for everything, but I actually do everything BEFORE I even ask Him

Recently I wasnt asking for anything else but meals, medicine, and personal products

There’s no answer so I thought I can’t ask for bigger things if I dont deserve the smaller things

I also dont know what people say when they say “God talked to me”, how? I always pray. I even isolate myself so I dont hear anything else.

Or maybe God doesnt talk to everyone? I don’t know

I dont know what to pray, just pray for me

These past week I have been trying to find free meals personal products (no free resources in my location). Within this period I had experienced some harassment from men.

Some people might say just ignore them, it’s not that serious.

But I am already suffering from anxiety and I haven’t had a sound sleep since the first incident.

These were not physical. Just through chat. But can’t seem to shake it off.

Right now I’m already suffering from starvation and malnutrition and on that of that there’s anxiety and these incidents….

I won’t share in detail here because I’m not sure if this is the right place. Also there’s no TW flair.

Just want to talk and breathe.

where can i talk about traumatic incidents? I dont know how to classify it…

What else do I have to sell to get decent meals

I already allowed people to step on my dignity by begging

I approached people who seem to be kind and was only asked what I would trade (suggesting something indecent)

I had bad experiences so I am more paranoid about privacy

It’s my 6th day of begging, I had to eat an old bread 😂

How did I get here

I already tried everything charities, shelters, etc they dont give free meals daily

No food banks, no pantries

Nothing free

I hate everything. I hate all the choices I made. Most especially the times I placed more importance on others than myself.

Where are they now? They just see me as a burden

I dont recognize my self anymore. I dont even look at the mirror anymore. I am just a physical form without a soul.

Prayer before I close my eyes for the last time…

From St Gemma

My Jesus, I place all my sins before you. In my estimation They do not deserve pardon, But I ask you To close your eyes To my want of merit And open them To your infinite merit.

Since you willed To die for my sins, Grant me forgiveness For all of them. Thus, I may no longer feel The burden of my sins, A burden that oppresses me Beyond measure.

Assist me, dear Jesus, For I desire to become good No matter what the cost Take away, destroy, And utterly root out Whatever you find in me That is contrary To your holy will. At the same time, dear Jesus, illumine me So that I may walk in your holy light.

Want to be grateful for something

If God has an answer to my prayer, i don’t know what it is…

Please help me pray to recognize his presence…

Please help me pray to find relief….

If I don’t start stealing now I would die of hunger or illness (i have medications that should be taken with meals) or I will lose my sanity from stress and humiliation…this is very humiliating, people are making fun of me already….

I don’t talk to anyone else on a daily basis…only to God

I hope He talks to me…

I am praying to God one more time to have mercy on me..

Nothing in my life has been going right

I’m so exhausted. The exhaustion is now very visible in my physical appearance.

I haven’t felt joy in a loooooonnnnngggg time

I hope somebody gives me a chance…

What else to I have to do? I can’t rebuild on my own…

I hope someone gives me a chance 😞

Jeremiah 29:11 is a popular Bible verse where God declares, “For I know the plans I have for you... plans for welfare and not for calamity, to give you a future and a hope”

But where are your plans for me? 😔

I’m struggling so much. Extreme economic stress.

I dont know where go get next meals.

We dont have food pantries here. I already went to churches and they’re already taking care of so many people, they only offer free meals every Sunday.

Charities have scheduled activities and I didn’t pass their assessment.

I cant believe I would be in this situation. I started working at a very young age. I have no vices. I dont think about having a family because of the economy. I got sick, all my savings gone, cant get a job.

I’m struggling so much oh my God. I cant even afford basic feminine products. Nothing is free where I live.

Again, nothing is free where I live. No food banks or give aways.

I feel like an animal without any thought but survival.

I’ve been looking for help everywhere…just for something to eat daily while I find employment.

One person sent some help. I didn’t demand anything and I said if you dont believe me just leave me alone, just because I am asking help online doesnt automatically mean I am a bad person. He sent help anyway.

Later on he was pushing me to do this and that and commenting harshly on my posts saying my thoughts are ****. When I asked him to stop, he got mad and demanded I give back his help. I cannot afford to give it back right now.

I just feel so bad 😞 i asked politely and just because you dont know me doesnt mean I am a bad person. Doesnt the Bible say give and withhold judgement?

You can say things about me but I’ve got to try asking because I am on survival mode.

I pray to God to remove me from this situation so I dont experience things like this again.

I have no more words….just despair 😔

May God make His presence known to me

I dont know what else to do. I dont even know what to think anymore.

Everything is my life is broken.

I hope God shows me some mercy and I get to experience some relief.

I feel like an animal needing to hunt everyday. If I dont find a solution soon, all that’s left is to steal or leave this world.

May God have mercy on me 😢