Im so lost rate now, every second of everyday im thinking about where it went wrong why things happen the way they did, how someone who was so loving 2 months ago could hurt me so bad and be so cold. After 5 years I couldn’t even get a phone call just a simple “we need to talk” on Snapchat. In the months you were distant you lied to me everyday told me you loved me told me you missed me all while planning on how to leave me. How you only told me the truth when I asked about moving back to the same city as you, how you didn’t say anything the many times I asked if something was wrong or if things were different and if there was anything I was doing wrong. I know I wasn’t the best man at the beginning of our relationship but these past years I’ve done everything I could to make up for that, tried to show you how I’m building myself to be a better man so that would could live that future we always planned out and I was stupid enough to think you believed in me. I feel so dumb knowing how much loved I poured into you towards the end, how I loved so unconditionally without any effort back, how I poured my feeling out telling you I needed reassurance when all you came back with was excuses, how could I be so dumb to not see what was right in front of me and now I’m feeling the pain of my own blindness. Everyday I read through our text, our reels, look at our pictures and think how could someone who poured so much love into me leave me like you did, so cold and heartless. The worst part is I lost the thing I loved most about myself, our relationship, the way I loved you, the way you made me feel. This past week of not texting you has been so hard, I lost my best friend and have no one to open up to I miss you so much but I know you don’t feel the same. I’m sorry for ever hurting you and being lost at times, but even in those time were I felt hurt and you were lost the thought of leaving you and starting something different with another person never entered my head because I knew the love I had for you was stronger than any feeling I could ever imagine. I guess you never felt the same and I’m sorry for not being enough for you to feel that certainty, I hope you find someone that make you feel the way I do for you and you get that future you always wanted.
Sincerely,
The man who will always love you