u/Competitive_Pool4277

Ever since I was a little kid I've had a difficult relationship with my body. I personally never minded it however it was apparent after I was diagnosed with multiple different physical health problems as a baby that my parents clearly did.

Just to clarify, I was medically considered incredibly underweight, I had asthma and had gotten severe pneumonia as an infant. All of which led my parents to be, understandably, critical of how much I ate (they wanted me to eat a lot. Obviously)

Not only this but I would constantly get reminded so much of how skinny I was as a little kid (all from concern of course) but this led me to always think of my weight.

When I became officially a healthy weight medically about 4 years ago I was really happy, I had been working towards this for SO LONG and it had finally happened. Though when I looked at myself in the mirror and on a weighing machine, I felt...odd. I felt kind of unhappy, I don't entirely know why, the amount of skinniness that I previously was at wasn't even considered attractive (I mean that in the sense you could see my ribs)

Since then I sometimes catch myself telling me that I don't really need to eat. Sometimes it works and other times I get a really absurd amount of the food and just keep on eating. I don't know why...I don't think it's bulimia since I don't throw up afterwards though I still feel guilty.

Just for lunch, I kept on telling myself that I didn't need to eat as I had had 2 waffles and some fries a couple of hours ago. Though I still think I didn't need to eat my stomach was growling, so I'm not sure.

So Reddit tell me, am I gaining an ED?

I'd just like to start off by saying that when I leave the country, chances are I'll be gone forever. I am not coming back for at least 7-8 years and probably even longer.

I first met my friend 3 years ago when I was in a very horrible place mentally, struggling with thoughts of suicide, etc. They attempted and failed badly to get me out of that position but I haven't hated them for that.

I just wanted to include that part to show that our friendship was not exactly built in the same way my other friendships were.

So, ever since we became friends she made it crystal clear that she had no respect for herself nor any confidence

This wasn't that bad up until 2 years ago, when she just kept on talking about her problems and when I suggested her getting therapy she said 'no, I'm not sick'. I can't deal with that anymore. I'm tired. She still talks to me about her interests sometimes but refuses to join me when I'm talking to other people and just wants me to be around her.

We're in a friend group so that makes this pretty difficult.

Not to mention the sheer amount of homophobia she constantly perpetuates for the past 2 years as well (I'm a part of the LGBTQ+ community)

I'm sick of it.

I've tried ending our friendship multiple times because alongside this our personalities and interests just don't match, I'm into baking, drawing, writing, music and reading. She's into socializing, drawing, anime, etc. I have watched a few anime but hardly anything she's seen.

So, this brings us to today. I have a flight to a different country (I'm moving there because of family, education, etc) and I won't be back. It's in June.

I've been friends with her for 3 years but I just don't want her at my party. I understand this'll hurt her but I think a few of my friends being there while she's also there would just upset her since she'd feel neglected by the friend group despite how many times we've tried to involve her.

This party is in June so I still have a solid amount of time to consider.

WIBTAH if I didn't invite her?

I haven't seen a SINGLE reddit post addressing this, albeit I have been searching for only about 10 minutes but I did find similar topics.

I don't necessarily mind removing or keeping body hair, however when it comes to my armpits it gets UNBEARABLE. I CANNOT handle how it feels so much so that I've been getting laser hair removal for it.

That has done wonders but the regrown is INCREDIBLY painful. The stubble itches and feels like tiny pin pricks or little needles constantly hurting me. Does anyone have ANY IDEA how to stop the regrowth from being so painful??