2 weeks NC - The devil on my shoulder telling me to reach out.
It has been two weeks since I last heard from her. The last thing I got was a declaration of love how she loves me and only wants me. I haven't heard from her since.
I stayed strong for 2 weeks, no chasing, no questions, begging, emotional reactions. But now the devil on my shoulder is trying to get me to send a message to open the bridge again. Devil;
- Maybe she got overwhelmed, retreated due to fear of getting hurt.
- The longer the silence, the harder it became for her to reach out to me.
- Maybe she did want me to follow up more/chase for her validation, counter fear of abandonment.
- Her exes were toxic and she thinks chasing/begging is love.
Angel on my shoulder:
- Keep your dignity and self respect.
- If she really wanted to, she would reach out herself.
- By ghosting, she was disrespectful to my feelings.
- She may ghost again and you start the cycle from day 0.
I am in between. I know the best would most likely be to keep NC going. On the other hand, I know how she is and what she likely thinks (I could be wrong). Maybe she got scared after saying she loved me, scared of her feelings and I would hurt her in the future so she chose the safe option. Maybe she does want contact but doesn't know how to reconcile if she thinks I might be angry.
I have been strong so far, actually really proud of myself but I do miss her and believe there is still something there to work with, as we have never even had a fight or anything. Never any accusations, hurling insults etc.
Thanks.