u/Clown-s5

I would think it doesn't, but I'm just wondering.

Specifically, what does the trash logo mean if it hasn't been deleted? I have a post that hasn't been deleted (I don't think) but the trash logo is still there.

I DO NOT INTEND TO ACT ON THIS, IT IS SICKENING!!! I AM JIST GENUINELY CURIOUS!!!

If you were to flay someone, could they regrow their skin back? My logic is that if you were to put them in some kind of solution and have them lay there for a while, their skin would eventually grow back.

Sometimes this happens to me when my thoughts become, not overwhelming per-say, but just start to fill my head and my body may become "numb" and I may become giddy/start to giggle a bit and my vision doesn't seem like my vision if that makes sense?

My family likes to talk about each other a lot, usually in a negative light and I'll admit, I'll do so too sometimes, usually about my sibling and what I've noticed in their behavior that my parents have noticed and how it may impact them in the future.

However, when they start to share things about each other that I haven't noticed happening and/or they deny if I bring it up to them, I think it starts to mess with me on who's telling the truth, especially if what was said could just be interpretation (and example of this is my sibling saying nothing and did nothing for my mom on mother's Day this year and my mom chopped it up to them hating her (they have a rough relationship, I'll say that, but I can't say if that's from my sibling being a pain in the ass teenager, or if it's partially from my mom)).

My dad has talked about my mom in a negative way in the past due to their marital issues and vise versa. My sibling has fights with my mom and talks about her in a negative light to everyone around. I think my mom has to walk on eggshells around my sibling (mainly them) and my dad because she's worried about their responses and the potential arguments that she feels she has to defend herself against, which is understandable.

I have to check with my sibling on parental behavior and if it's just me or if it's something that is bad because I can't tell anymore (I had to ask them, in writing on my notes app: "Is it just me or does she not listen when we tell her shit, then she finds out about it later, complains to us and when we say something, she just repeats what she said prior to what we said?" Because I couldn't tell.)

I can't tell when my dad is being offensive or making a joke because he does it so often that the line has started to blur. I personally don't care if something is supposed to offend me, I made myself get over that and I think that doesnt help this scenario. I think due to this, I can't tell when to laugh at jokes anymore, so I just stare at videos or people when what they say is supposed to be funny because I can't tell unless it's clear (South Park, comedy skits, Class Of 09, Moral Oral, etc).

That also seems to impact my relationship/how I interact with women. Maybe because my dad has said offensive stuff in the past about them, I think I worry that if I laugh at something they haven't, it's not funny and that if I do, I'm being misogynistic or offensive (I'm a trans guy). I also worry that something I say will end up being offensive.

For example, last week, we had a substitute teacher and instead of doing the call out names, he was going around and asking for them. We have a student in that class that doesn't talk and I thought it would be helpful if I said her name so she wouldn't feel worried/stressed about it. After I opened my mouth to the teacher, I realized that she could've just pointed to her folder that has her name on it and felt bad and that I did something wrong.

But I digress, anyway, I think the offensiveness has rubbed off on my sibling at times. Both of them have a tendency to call themselves retarded, accompanied with a limp hand to their chest, shaking it and making some groaning "ehgh" noise. I think they think it's funny, but it feels weird and I'm not sure if that's offensive or not.

I know I'm no saint, I know I'm not and I'm sure I'm a major asshole and have been in the past to my mom, which I fear has been the horrible role model on my sibling which caused their behavior a bit.

I'm trying to be a better person, but I don't find myself to be one anymore no matter what anyone says to me. I still feel horrible all the time about it. I have a journal where I keep a list of my monthly (what I deem to be) fuck ups and listen them there to keep track of them so I can avoid them in the future. I've had this for a year and the list gets shorter each month.

I also know that not all families are perfect, some are bad, some are good, some are in between or none at all, but living with mine just feels wrong in a way. Not bad, not good, just wrong. I can't trust any of them it feels like and I feel like we are just all bad people and that we would all be better off gone.

Edit for TL;DR: My family hates each other/is destroying each other and I'm not sure if I should stay in contact/care about them anymore.

r/AmIOverreacting wouldn't let me post this and I don't understand the reason of "didn't verify my account within the required timeframe" reasoning and I would really like to know if I am overreacting.

So my younger sibling (15m) has been trying to lose weight for some time now and has made a bit of progress. Couple days ago, they downloaded a calorie tracker (Bitepal), and I'm worried that they'll start getting obsessive about the calories and end up with an eating disorder, which could end with my mom being mad at them for having more problems.

Because I (17m) have my own issues with food (not calorie related, obsessive clean eating), I don't want them to go down the path I have and end up the way I have and unfortunately, I do believe I've played a part in their new behavior somehow.

I know I could use myself as an example to try and fix myself so they would too, but I'm too worried to change what I've been doing for over a year at this point.

With Bitepal, they log just about everything they eat with pictures which the app uses an AI to determine calorie count (which I don't entirely trust to be accurate).

I know I should be proud of them for taking charge of their health, but this just worries me. And this is the only thing they're doing with like a one day a week treadmill run at a gym (last I knew, this could've stopped).

AIO?

TL;DR: My sibling has a calorie tracker and I worry for them.

I didn't know how else to title this, but I know that for a lot of trans folks, it can be annoying or even painful to be misgendered or perceived as the wrong gender.

I simply don't react like this and was wondering if others felt this way too.

Maybe it's because my dad has kinda framed being a part of the LGBTQ as a "okay, you're (insert gender/sexuality), who cares?" Or at least that's how it's felt, maybe? He still loves me and accepts me and I am grateful for that as I know that not a lot of LGBTQ folks have that support, but maybe because I've sort of adopted this myself, subconsciously, I feel uncomfortable around, specifically adults (except my teachers and classmates who are part of the community), when it comes to this, especially when they've said nothing on the topic in passing, so I don't know how to go about a conversation with them about it.

With that being said, due to this, I have also avoided ordering any merch related to LGBTQ (and gotten rid of past merch bought/gifted to me), avoid Pride festivals, and say nothing/avoid the topic altogether.

It's gotten to the point where I just don't feel anything toward trying to fix being misgendered or perceived as the wrong gender, even though it's not often that I do. I simply say nothing, stifle the words on what I identify as and move on. I'll say it once and if it's not followed, "oh well" I guess?

I also stopped trying to find my sexuality and find myself constantly confused on who I'm attracted to or if I am at all. Doesn't help that I've kinda numbed the "lovey-dovey" emotions down, so yeah, that's that I guess.

I guess this is a slight, confused rant (??) and an ask if anyone else feels like this or if it's something to be concerned about (??).

I could just be making a mountain out of a mole hole and this is a completely normal reaction to this situation, I don't know, it never seems that way though.

Edit: I'm 17FtM if that makes a difference, idk