u/ClosetWeebMiku

I just felt like saying that.

As an artist I tend to draw fictional characters. Or oc’s I have made up myself. Or just drawings of myself. Any other person I have ever drawn in there has left a special impact on me. It’s essentially letting those people in your “world.”

Not everyone does this, but lots of artists do. And if this happens to you, consider yourself very lucky. :)

Hey! This is my first time posting here. My therapist has suggested I am autistic (but I have no actual diagnosis), so I thought maybe here would have the best advice for me.

Since the fourth grade I absolutely have sucked at school. I struggled to learn the material through lectures, brought the homework home, then I would hide it.

Then fifth grade I had to redo the whole grade for this exact situation. It was mostly due to me not turning work in, but parts of it was my absence seizures as well.

Despite this I still failed many classes. I failed throughout all of middle school. I was severely depressed because I felt I wasn’t capable of learning. I lost all motivation to even learn.

I struggled my Freshman year of high school, then I did better my sophomore year once I got solid friends for a while. I got diagnosed with ADHD my sophomore year as well.

I did exceptional the rest of high school. I was no longer failing but it was never “good”. I ended with a 2.6 GPA.

The end of my senior year I felt a lot of motivation to actually learn. But this was only in particular things I liked to study. I would study endlessly about these subjects but still have no energy for my actual school work assigned to me.

When college came around I thought this would get better… but I failed my classes due to depression. Now Im retaking them in a better mindset. Yet… I am still struggling with turning things in and not doing things last minute. Especially now I have a job and STILL don’t make enough money.

The fact I am trying and I am still failing tests and struggling not doing work last minute is embarrassing. I really want to fix this but I have no idea how.

The only things that have helped me is:

1. Studying in public (not my room)

2. Listening to music while doing school work

3. Having someone else pressure me to do it

Otherwise I have no self discipline and when I do, I am incredibly harsh on myself.