I’ve been continuously apologizing and trying to get your attention now for several months. I take accountability for my actions. I take accountability for the pain you’re feeling. I am accountable for my mistakes and for my indiscretions. That’s all my fault. That’s all on me.
What I can’t take is you neglecting to see that there are two victims in this 14 1/2 year relationship you are a victim now and I apologize for that. Sincerely you are the love of my life and I don’t wanna hurt you. I never wanted to hurt you. I’m sorry I messed up. I messed up bad.
But it wasn’t that great in the relationship I was never very happy with our relationship. You know I was not happy with our relationship I told you. I told you about my fears. I told you about myself I told you my secrets…
Now you know everything there is to know about me and so you’re disgusted apparently. You’re not supposed to go into somebody’s account and read their journal. You’re not supposed to go into somebody’s account.
I’ve tried and I’ve tried to apologize, and I’m sorry you’re going through so much pain and I’m sorry that you’re struggling. I wish that I could help you if you know a way I can help you that I can do I will do.
Your box will be there as soon as I can get it to you
u/Clear_Vision_444
Apology
I want to start by saying how deeply sorry I am for the pain I have caused you. I know that my actions hurt you. And I know that I put you through things. No one who loves another person should ever put them through. I see now how much pain, sorrow, and emotional weight you have carried because of me and I am truly sorry for that. You didn’t deserve it.
I want you to know that I acknowledge your feelings completely. You’re hurt is real. Your pain matters. And I regret, more than I could fully express, the ways I contributed to breaking the trust, safety, and peace between us. I take full responsibility for my part without excuses.
All the same time, I need to speak honestly about my heart….
Not to take away from your pain, but to share the truth of mine. For over 14 years, the neglect and rejection I felt devastated me in ways. I didn’t understand at the time. It was deeply traumatizing, and I carried that hurt quietly for a long time. That pain does not excuse the way I hurt you, but it is part of the story of how we both ended up here.
Even knowing that, I am still sorry for my part. I wish I had handled my pain differently. I wish I had communicated better, chosen, healthier ways to cope, and protected both of us from more her. If I could undo the damage I caused I would without hesitation.
Despite everything, my love for you has never disappeared. I still wish, more than anything, that we could find our way back to each other that you would have the patience to see the changes. I am trying to make, and that you would come home. I understand that healing takes time and I respect what space you need. I just want you to know that my heart remains open to you.
Thank you for reading this. I hope someday my words can begin to reflect the growth and the accountability. I am working toward every day.
With love and sincerity
I want to start by saying how deeply sorry I am for the pain I have caused you. I know that my actions hurt you. And I know that I put you through things. No one who loves another person should ever put them through. I see now how much pain, sorrow, and emotional weight you have carried because of me and I am truly sorry for that. You didn’t deserve it.
I want you to know that I acknowledge your feelings completely. You’re hurt is real. Your pain matters. And I regret, more than I could fully express, the ways I contributed to breaking the trust, safety, and peace between us. I take full responsibility for my part without excuses.
All the same time, I need to speak honestly about my heart….
Not to take away from your pain, but to share the truth of mine. For over 14 years, the neglect and rejection I felt devastated me in ways. I didn’t understand at the time. It was deeply traumatizing, and I carried that hurt quietly for a long time. That pain does not excuse the way I hurt you, but it is part of the story of how we both ended up here.
Even knowing that, I am still sorry for my part. I wish I had handled my pain differently. I wish I had communicated better, chosen, healthier ways to cope, and protected both of us from more her. If I could undo the damage I caused I would without hesitation.
Despite everything, my love for you has never disappeared. I still wish, more than anything, that we could find our way back to each other that you would have the patience to see the changes. I am trying to make, and that you would come home. I understand that healing takes time and I respect what space you need. I just want you to know that my heart remains open to you.
Thank you for reading this. I hope someday my words can begin to reflect the growth and the accountability. I am working toward every day.
With love and sincerity
Apology
I want to start by saying how deeply sorry I am for the pain I have caused you. I know that my actions hurt you. And I know that I put you through things. No one who loves another person should ever put them through. I see now how much pain, sorrow, and emotional weight you have carried because of me and I am truly sorry for that. You didn’t deserve it.
I want you to know that I acknowledge your feelings completely. You’re hurt is real. Your pain matters. And I regret, more than I could fully express, the ways I contributed to breaking the trust, safety, and peace between us. I take full responsibility for my part without excuses.
All the same time, I need to speak honestly about my heart….
Not to take away from your pain, but to share the truth of mine. For over 14 years, the neglect and rejection I felt devastated me in ways. I didn’t understand at the time. It was deeply traumatizing, and I carried that hurt quietly for a long time. That pain does not excuse the way I hurt you, but it is part of the story of how we both ended up here.
Even knowing that, I am still sorry for my part. I wish I had handled my pain differently. I wish I had communicated better, chosen, healthier ways to cope, and protected both of us from more her. If I could undo the damage I caused I would without hesitation.
Despite everything, my love for you has never disappeared. I still wish, more than anything, that we could find our way back to each other that you would have the patience to see the changes. I am trying to make, and that you would come home. I understand that healing takes time and I respect what space you need. I just want you to know that my heart remains open to you.
Thank you for reading this. I hope someday my words can begin to reflect the growth and the accountability. I am working toward every day.
With love and sincerity
I want to start by saying how deeply sorry I am for the pain I have caused you. I know that my actions hurt you. And I know that I put you through things. No one who loves another person should ever put them through. I see now how much pain, sorrow, and emotional weight you have carried because of me and I am truly sorry for that. You didn’t deserve it.
I want you to know that I acknowledge your feelings completely. You’re hurt is real. Your pain matters. And I regret, more than I could fully express, the ways I contributed to breaking the trust, safety, and peace between us. I take full responsibility for my part without excuses.
All the same time, I need to speak honestly about my heart….
Not to take away from your pain, but to share the truth of mine. For over 14 years, the neglect and rejection I felt devastated me in ways. I didn’t understand at the time. It was deeply traumatizing, and I carried that hurt quietly for a long time. That pain does not excuse the way I hurt you, but it is part of the story of how we both ended up here.
Even knowing that, I am still sorry for my part. I wish I had handled my pain differently. I wish I had communicated better, chosen, healthier ways to cope, and protected both of us from more her. If I could undo the damage I caused I would without hesitation.
Despite everything, my love for you has never disappeared. I still wish, more than anything, that we could find our way back to each other that you would have the patience to see the changes. I am trying to make, and that you would come home. I understand that healing takes time and I respect what space you need. I just want you to know that my heart remains open to you.
Thank you for reading this. I hope someday my words can begin to reflect the growth and the accountability. I am working toward every day.
With love and sincerity
Hey,
I’ve been sitting here with everything that happened, turning it over in my heart and in my head, and I need you to know how deeply sorry I am.
Not just for the way I reacted, before the pain behind it that I didn’t know how to hold properly.
I love my fears speak louder than my love, and that’s something I truly regret
What I feel for you has never been small or temporary. It’s something that’s rooted itself. Deep inside me overtime 14+ years, through every quiet moment, every shared glance every piece of life we’ve lived side-by-side.
You became part of how I understand the world, part of how I understand myself.
And that’s why this hurts so much
But even in the middle of this, I keep coming back to the one undeniable truth, there is something rare and beautiful about us the way we connect, the way we understand each other without always needing words, the history we carry… it isn’t something ordinary. It’s something people search for their entire lives and never quite find
I see it. I feel it. I know it.
I hate that my actions may have made you question that beauty. I hate that I let my own inner chaos spill over onto something so meaningful. You didn’t deserve that version of me you didn’t deserve that.
I’m trying to understand myself better, where my fears come from why I reacted the way I did. I started therapy because I never wanna hurt you like that again I never wanna hurt anyone like again.
Not you not us not anyone
No matter where we stand right now, I need you to know this loving you has been one of the most real and powerful things I’ve ever experienced. And I will always carry that with care.
If there is still a space where we can find each other again, calmly, honestly, and with open hearts. I would meet you there with everything I have….
You will always be a part of me even if you discard the part of me that IS part of you.
For the love of peace and partners.
Hey, you,
I need to take full responsibility for what happened between us. I am deeply sorry for the way I exploded. It was not justified, and it came from my own fears and unresolved pain. I acted in ways that was chaotic and hurtful, and none of it was your fault. I take complete accountability for my actions.
After 14+ years, I lost the stability I took for granted, and I’m devastated by what I did.
You were my world, I needed you, I wanted you, I chose you!
I’m sorry I felt like you didn’t choose me, I’m sorry I constantly questioned how you felt for me.
If you would like me to never contact you again, I will never contact you again. I will leave you in peace.
If you’re happiness lies and moving on, I will respect that, but I needed you to know how sorry I am.
I miss you so much and I just wanted to be honest
PS. The kids on the block say hello.
I’ve been sitting with everything that happened turning it over in my mind and my heart and I need to speak to you honestly* without defensiveness, without excuses, just truth
I’m sorry…
Not just for the moment when everything spilled over, but for the deeper patterns that led me there. I see now that what came out of me wasn’t really about you…. It was my fear, my insecurity, and the walls I built to protect myself that ended up, hurting the person I care about the most. I didn’t handle my emotions with care, and you didn’t deserve that.
The truth is, I love you deeply. In a way that felt steady and grounding, even if I didn’t always show it the right way. You meant more to me than I was able to express without fear getting in the way. And instead of being honest about those fears, I let them twist into something destructive. I can see how that must have felt from your side, and it hurts me to know I caused you pain.
I’m not writing this to undo. What’s been done or to assure you into anything. I understand that trust once shaken doesn’t just return because of words. I’m writing because you deserve to hear the truth…. What we had mattered to me, that you mattered to me and that I take responsibility for the way I handled things.
If I could go back, I would choose openness over fear, calm over reaction, honesty over self protection. I can’t change the past, but I’m trying to understand it so I don’t repeat it… so I can become someone who handles love with the care deserves.
No matter where things go from here, I want you to know that what I felt for you was real what I feel for you is real. You impact me in a way that stays with me and I’m grateful for that even in the pain.
I hope you’re finding peace clarity and whatever it is that you need right now.
Please know that I love you know how sorry I am and understand how much I wanna fix things.
I know we were great together.
And again, I’m truly sorry.