u/Clean-Talk2336

There’s this kind of loneliness people dont really talk about

The kind where youre surrounded by people every day, yet somehow still feels invisible and like an air to them.

Maybe this is a reason why I love going out, meeting new people, and especially going to a concert… TO FEEL THINGS. to feel im really alive and not just existing.

Lately, me and my sister have been drifting apart too. I guess this is just what growing up feels like sometimes. We live under the same roof but it almost feels like we dont exist in each other’s world anymore. I dont feel her presence even if shes around me lang naman or beside me eating.
.. the house feels quiet in a way that isnt peaceful, its just empty

Going to concerts became my escape from that feeling. Because for a night, I dont feel disconnected from the world. BECAUSE
Music makes me feel seen
Music makes me feel understood

Even when i go alone, i dont really feel alone.
Its thousands of people connected by the same songs singing our hearts out together. And some carrying heartbreak. Some are exhuasted and wants to have fun.

And maybe thats the beautiful thing about concerts, because for a night, you realize you were never the only person feeling that way.

Bought my mom flowers cuz pambawi kasi home na naman ako ng late. Pls dont be mad at me muma

Anyway, this is also my 1st celebration of moms day and it got me teary after nya sabihin na

“Dont worry i also have something for u tomorroww since its mothers day” even if we sometimes argue a lot, never nya na forget to celebrate me !

Im gonna cry cuz if ill ever go out and see people na happy family, ill feel lonely. Pero mas okay na to than to be with someone na di present and walang care kahit man lang with my kid. Dont worry, ill find someone im more deserving of.

Dear mother,
Lets start this by saying im sorry i disappointed you a lot with what happened to me. Im sorry cuz minsan im hard headed but i know with every sermon na sinasabi mo, its always out of concern and love. Thank you for loving me on your good days and the rough ones.

Thank u for taking care of me despite me being a pain.

I wanna make u proud and i wish to be as strong as you cuz im a mom now. I admire you ALOT

I still remember, even if hindi naging madali pregnancy ko and all, di mo ako iniwan. U couldve said, get out of the house and never come back but tinanggap mo pa rin ako. But i promise you i can always do better.

Thank u for loving my baby. Thank u for welcoming him with an open arms. Yes i know im alone with this, but everyday, pinaparamdam mo with him na meron syang family with full of love even if the dads not around anymore.

Thank you for wiping my tears evrytime na na hheartbroken ako. Thank u for always providing for us even if i dont deserve it sometimes. Im grateful with evrythig i have right now but im lucky to call u my MOM.

I wish you know how much i love you too but im just reslly shy to tell you. Don worry ill give u a love letter like what i used to do nung younger days ko. Pls take care and love urself too the way u look out for others, kasi minsan nakakalimutan mo yun and i hate that.

Love u forever

From- yourr malditang eldest hahahaha. Promise im sweet😂

If u have one pls dm me. Meet up only
For May 19 sana

Looking for someone i can talk to in a daily basis. Not really looking for romantic love but more of a bestie vibes but if we click why not?

Requirement: maayos kausap at may substance
Also, if magkasundo tayo, lets set a day as random act of kindness where we give people a lil something to people out on streets na very deserving of it. D natin need ng millions to do that

I’m drawn to people who are a bit nerdy, smart but still funny, passionate about their hobbies, and overall level-headed. Someone who can keep things interesting but also grounded. A good mix of depth and lightness.

Im down going out, walking during sunsets with our smootie and just talk. Tell me bout ur life, ur struggles, whats ur life like rn, I can also be ur diary hahaha. I wont mind if u dump all of it on me. U can cry or we can cry together

Im the type na sponty, also samahan mo ako pumunta sa concert, go to new places or even travel ganyan, lets try new things together if both not busy

About me:
-5’2, fair skinned, short hair gal, can be a bit bosyy, normal BMI
- im down doing things that im unfamiliar with, if u introduce me to a new hobby, im g. I like learning
-into arts & design, one of my inspiration is martha stewart, i love learning new topics in everything
- i think deeply, can be indecisive though, u might find me maldita/ maarte at first pero i promise u im more than that
- im an emphatic, monthly my goal is to give people a lilsomething lalo sa people on streets na homeless and walang wala tlga. Im not a billionaire but i believe that sharing is caring.
- i made it my tradition every xmas since 2024 to give present especially to kids on streets na walang buong family. Coz indont want them to feel sad and drawn ako to people like that lalo if i see their eyes SAD. (Last year, also gave a xmas basket sa hospi not super many but enough to people na nagbabantay to their loved ones)

About you:
-round metro
- i appreciate kind people i hope ure nice but honest! I like someone na into arts as well, have a deep understanding in life.
- health conscious
-nerdy, smart, and may baon ng lots of kwento cuz i can listen to u all day, also wanna learn sa wisdom mo in life

Message me if this is you, also im turned off with someone who keeps on typing “HAHAHAHHA/hahahaha” nd wala namang funny

Also round my age this sana pwede older basta wag ka creepy and within metro.
Pls give me a proper introduction, tell me ur name, and something ud like to share. Pls wag kang performative. Dont be touchy touchy when round me, we r not together for u to do that. Something genuine na barkada like bonding.

Looking for someone i can talk to in a daily basis. Not really looking for romantic love but more of a bestie vibes but if we click why not?

Requirement: maayos kausap at may substance
Also, if magkasundo tayo, lets set a day as random act of kindness where we give people a lil something to people out on streets na very deserving of it. D natin need ng millions to do that

I’m drawn to people who are a bit nerdy, smart but still funny, passionate about their hobbies, and overall level-headed. Someone who can keep things interesting but also grounded. A good mix of depth and lightness.

Im down going out on dates, walking during sunsets with our smootie and just talk. Tell me bout ur life, ur struggles, whats ur life like rn, I can also be ur diary hahaha. I wont mind if u dump all of it on me. U can cry or we can cry together

Im the type na sponty, also samahan mo ako pumunta sa concert, go to new places or even travel ganyan, lets try new things together if both not busy

About me:
-5’2, fair skinned, short hair gal, can be a bit bosyy, normal BMI
- im down doing things that im unfamiliar with, if u introduce me to a new hobby, im g. I like learning
-into arts & design, one of my inspiration is martha stewart, i love learning new topics in everything
- i think deeply, can be indecisive though, u might find me maldita/ maarte at first pero i promise u im more than that
- im an emphatic, monthly my goal is to give people a lilsomething lalo sa people on streets na homeless and walang wala tlga. Im not a billionaire but i believe that sharing is caring.
- i made it my tradition every xmas since 2024 to give present especially to kids on streets na walang buong family. Coz indont want them to feel sad and drawn ako to people like that lalo if i see their eyes SAD. Last year also gave people a lil something sa hospi na nagbabantay

About you:
-round metro
- i appreciate kind people i hope ure nice but honest! I like someone na into arts as well, have a deep understanding in life.
- health conscious
-nerdy, smart, and may baon ng lots of kwento cuz i can listen to u all day, also wanna learn sa wisdom mo in life

Message me if this is you, also im turned off with someone who keeps on typing “HAHAHAHHA/hahahaha” nd wala namang funny

Also round my age this sana pwede older basta wag ka creepy and within metro.
Pls give me a proper introduction, tell me ur name, and something ud like to share. Pls wag kang performative. Dont be touchy touchy when round me, we r not together for u to do that. Something genuine na barkada like bonding.

Truthfully, Looking for someone whos down with everything. Whether thats something like walking while enjoying a good convo, enjoying each others company and be weird with each other.
Like bestie vibesss. U can share whats bothering you and all and id do the same

Rn im just so worked up with things and i need someone na light kasama

I prefer someone who’s Open minded, happy gal, and kind.

Also pwede naman mag date and lumabas without overthinking it, keeping it casual, if we ever like each other to a point, then discuss that. Honestly im just tired of the dating scene hahaha

About me:
-5’2

- student, figuring and navigating life

-can get busy but i can make time for you

- not demanding, id say low maintenance

Interests:
-im down with anything that doesnt involve crime. It changes depending on my mood.

Am looking for someone round my age, sana round metro lang din, i prefer someone na fit.

I’ve gone on some dates that didn’t work out because they couldn’t accept me having a child.

Heard some of them saying “ good, I wont take care of another mans child”
Member them saying “ cant fathom to fully support someone who isnt mine”
Member someone saying “ thats too much of an ask”
Same meaning with different translations

I dont take this against them because we have our own preference. But my baby, is an extension of myself, it almost sounds like an insult because it means having “him” is kinda like a burden to look at for others. Kahit paano, its hurtful on my end. Like in the very beginning its okay, but the more they learn bout my motherhood journey, parang i became someone na they dont wanna take seriously.

But then, He’s always gonna be part of me, im okay losing people than to lose my child.

I know naman na im not define by these kind of remarks but the most recent encounter with someone made me feel WORTHLESS & UNLOVEABLE.

Minsan nga naiisip ko, if i became what i wanna be and reach my full potential in the future, i will not take anyone seriously also and just look for casual set ups para walang commitment, cuz wala naman mawawala sakin eh.(like wdym SINGLE MOM CANT THRIVE LOOK) Again this is just my thoughts rn like ang sakit tlga mabasa on my inbox yung mga sinasabi ng others bout me

Also remarks like:
-hindi mo pina abort?
- sayang ka
- that sucks

Also, i remember someone asking me repeatedly if okay pa ba ako. I told myself and infront of him YES, only to realize na deep inside hindi pala. Look myself in the mirror, super teary eyed, Na kahit alam kong d ko naman pinersonal yun, it hurts NG SOBRA. sometimes i wish, i can open up bout my real thoughts and how wounded i am also and just cry for hours without judgement like minsan NAKAKA wtf na lang hahaha

Reminder to self:
Di ka lang pang fuck
U are worth it
U are strong

But yknow what, im proud of myself, kasi even when days are hard for me, i chose to show up

Ill keep this simple and no BS.

Check my profile for vibe check

Im currently looking for someone i can pretty much vibe with almost everything. I understand na theres differences but its not a hindrance naman para magkasundo right.

I consider myself a laidback person. Its not a problem for me if we hang out, text each other everyday and theres nothing. I see it this way, we are two people whos getting know each other and enjoys company like besties.No pressure or anything, kasi if things get serious well get there eventually.

About me
-u might find me boring, i dont chase thrills cuz i dont believe in that, and i dont play games. U might find me blunt and thats fine, if u dont like it friendship over hahaha
-5’2, i have a short hair, simple lang and id say attractive. Youll not be disappointed
-Straightforward, i dont say things i dont mean, soo donchu worry i keep it real and wala ka iooverthink i guess
-I consider myself sweet and a caring person. Lumalabas sya if i know na worth it ung person
-Im a maldita at some point, easily get annoyed with some stuff but im understanding
-I can listen to u all day if i have the time. Basta we dont gossip bout other people i dont like doing that. We can talk about dumb funny things and meaningful as well. I like someone whos also fluent in englissh
-I wont entertain someone whos confusing, dry texter and creepy stay away from my inbox
-Im not performative. So if u get a version of me na sassy or whatever i show it but im mindful naman so donchuuu worry
-I like having fun but i keep my values/morals intact. We can both have the best of both worlds. Live while were young hahaha
-Im not an overthinker, secured person, kinda senstive, so u might find me naive but thats fine, id rather be labeled as stupid kesa matawag na kung ano anong masama
-Im taking arts and design atm. Have aspiration to be an interior/fashion designer
-Im down trying new things, rn im into baking,cooking just imagine martha stewart.
-Im in the process of also building my life so pls understand delayed responsess not that i dont wanna talk to u
-I like learning i dont wanna end up as someone na walng skills in life. Im also not shy
-If u dont know, im a very decent person, so if u want something casual declare it kaagad peroill accept if its CASUAL “ i wanna hang out with u, be my companion” not ur woman for bed. If we are together, im not someone na touchy iguess hahahaha
- d ako maarte na tao, though u might find me as one kasi i have things i like set in mind.
-i might cry if u ask me really personal questions, so i hope u wont mind, im a level headed person naman but im also human right
- i understand life goals, so if theres ever a time na we cant be with each other temporarily whatever type man, go, im supportive and ill actually encourage u to be the person u wanna be, like go fly and flourish urself, if its something serious, id understand unless the reason is naglalandi lang. just being honest

About you:
-pass sa taga cavite or antipolo and rizal
-I prefer older than me, will not accept anyone whos in their 40’s and above 30 (preferably 22-26)
-Masipag, financially independent (cuz i can pay for myself and ill not pay for u, its actually a turn off)
-Attractive din sana, taller than me, smells great, clean and who also values healthy lifestyle like me/fit, fair skin
-May sense kausap, can actually carry a convo kahit anong topic, and funny
-D performative, d pa chansing hahah, Pranka, respectful, and may one word. I prefer someone whos also fluent in englishhh
-Accepts me for who i am. D demanding, d pala ask ng selfie pero wont even send one lmaoooo
-Someone who can actually walk a marathon!!!!
-interested with me and i prefer ung maupdate na tao like tell me bout ur day i could read all that after a long day
-emotionally available and has deep understanding in life. Someone na d shallow and puro fun lang alam
-i prefer someone na walang tattoos sana, non smoker or kahit vape
-understand na not all the time its always rainbows and butterflies but lagi naman may silver-lining with every bad

Also, hit me up if ure someone who doesnt mind being friends or whatever with a single mom. I can carry this stuff by myself and not actually a hindrance. ( my kid is not ur responsibility) Swear u wont even notice.

Also, pls consider our timeline in life, if thats something na not ur thing, no hard feelings as well. Pls read my post above thoroughly. Im also mindful with rs, so if u think na it could potentially develop sa ganon, again tripple think if this is something ud see long term. Especially to those people who doesnt want kids.

Life’s challenging for me rn, but i can handle it naman, but also trying to maintain a social life despite of everything. Dont hit me up out of awa or something i dont take it as a compliment

Also i know how challenging life can be, im a mom iknow how it feels like how hard it is to find balance as in with literally everything at some point, i consider myself as d sakit sa ulo and if ure exhausted with shitty ppl i am too, atp i consider myself medj quota na sa pain jk! and also have a thing going on in my life. So dontchuu worry

Pls if BS hanap mo get away. Im not here to hurt anyone

Its currently 7:31 pm and im otw home.

passed by a woman on the stairs carrying her baby. She looked like she was going through a lot, and it made me pause instead of just heading home right away. Dont mean this in a judgmental way, pero she looked like someone na hindi pa nakaligo ng days kasama ng baby nya. I wonder if my food pa ba sya?

i stood there for minutes, unsure. Then I gave what I could to atleast help her. Made me realize we’re so busy wanting more, we forget how much we already have. And some people are out there surviving with so little.

Sometimes I catch myself complaining, but I try not to make it a habit. Moments like this remind me how lucky I actually am in so many ways. It makes me pause and ask… are my problems really that big?

It’s also what keeps me grounded wherever I go and reminds me to stay true to my values.

Sobrang naawa ako, pero mas napaisip ako. Kung siya, kahit kulang sa resources, nakakaya pa rin… bakit ako hindi? Minsan kailangan lang talaga ng ganitong reality check.

What i learned here Mas natututo tayong mag appreciate kapag nakita natin yung realidad ng iba. Hindi rason to give up ksi u dont have enough. Theres so many people out there who didnt came from really affluent family or with generational wealth but still managed to be successful

-Life is unfair

-People come and go

-Unfortunate and unfavorable things are bound to happen ( though theres always good amidst bad things)

-U cant be 100% happy all the time

-There will be point in ur life na maliligaw ka and thats normal especially early 20’s

-Fortune is what u have, getting luck is how u play ur life (everything thats happening to u its just a concept of cause and effect rs with what u put sa world, luck are the chances and risks u take)

-U cant be good at everything

-Not evryone will like u (just be urself anyway)

-U dont know whats happening in someones life bts so its important to give a bit of grace. Karmas a bitch