Hello everyone,
So tired of all the emotions I experienced today starting from hanger and hate, then ok with a bit of euphoria and then bad bad during the psychiatrist appointment. Feeling everything is distant and weirdo.
He gave me brintellix and said that we will see if it’s gonna work because of past addictions and so on. So I’m wondering if anyone got better with it… I’m just used to DBC not meds…
I’m wondering if anyone else with BPD experiences this.
I feel like smells can completely change how I feel about someone. I can be really attracted to a person’s scent at first (skin one), then suddenly feel repulsed for no clear reason.
It’s happened in relationships too—I once thought my ex “changed smell” and it contributed to me leaving him. Years later, I felt like his original scent was back. Even recently, I went from being very attracted to someone to suddenly disliking them after noticing a smell that reminded me of someone I don’t like.
Sometimes it goes further—I’ve even reacted strongly to smells and made wrong assumptions because of them, and I still believe all of this is true.
What scares me is that I don’t know if this is real or if my brain is mixing memories and associations.
Does anyone else relate?
Just yesterday, I was really attracted to someone at first, hoped for the whole night that he’d kiss me. We spent a lot of time together, even slept next to each other, and nothing happened. At the beginning, I found his scent very appealing. But at one point, I got close to his hand and suddenly noticed a smell that strongly reminded me of someone I really dislike—and instantly, my feelings shifted and I was kind of happy about it cause I didn’t have to hope for his love…
I really need an advise. I’m traveling on the other side of the world and willing to move here for work. This guy is hosting me and he organise everything for me and so on. He tried to kiss me like 14 years ago and I lived this like a violence and for several years he kept saying sorry sorry. Now we spent 7 days together and nothing happened, I didn’t push anything cause my feelings are kind of switching from love and extreme attraction to repulsion. This is my last day and I met him again after 10 days traveling alone and I really want to kiss him but I’m also afraid he might reject me and also afraid cause I won’t to move to this country and he is a great friend and link for everything. What should I do ? I don’t understand if he looks at me as a friend or not because he didn’t do anything even if we slept together. Omg I feel so overwhelmed also because of altitude (my psychiatrist warned me about altitude effect on BPD). Any advise?