
And I don't know what to do about it.
I tried to fit in and make a normal life work for me when I was younger. I grinded, I worked multiple jobs, put myself through school, all the stuff I was supposed to do.
It was stressful, I over ate and drank too much, and at some point I just broke and threw everything away to travel around and be a hobo for 8 years.
I kept thinking at some point I'll just mature or something will shift in my brain and I will finally find settling down appealing.
Well, I'm still waiting. Currently I'm trying to rebuild my life and do normal things like have an apartment and pay rent but something inside me is so restless and ever ready to hit the delete button and run off into the distance again
Oh well, I had some great experiences, just hard to truly shelve it all