u/Cherrieee-04

So my bf broke up w me on April 12th. It’s been a long time and he still hasn’t reached out to me. We were in a serious relationship for 3 years. He and I were bsfsssssss. We shared everything, giggled at everything, we were sooooo in love. But yet, he broke up. He doesn’t even regret it. He said (lied) he was never happy n I never felt like home. He said we aren’t meant to be (an inside romantic phrase we tell each other almost everyday) . He hurt me a lot, I’m not even going thru a post breakup phase cause I’m that hurt. I’m super hurt, and idk what to believe. If he wasn’t real, then nothing else it. I miss him, but I also don’t. I love him but I don’t want to love someone who gives me away. Maybe he doesn’t love me enough

We just broke up like around 2 weeks ago and I’d what state I’m in?

We were the HAPPIEST couple, not even kidding. We were best friends, fr like BEST FRIENDS! And it was him and I, we ALWAYS got thru anything and everything. It was magical haha. I haven’t really dated other men but I’ve seen a lot of people, and I believe I’m emotionally intelligent to atleast differentiate our relationship from others. Maybe I’m blind, but pls correct me.

He said- love isn’t enough. Fights were our whole equation (we did fight a lot but most of them were bullying, the way we bully our bsf.) the one thing that BROKE ME was- “were you happy in this relationship?” Cause nah bro- my whole life fell apart, as if- everything I’ve lived is a fucking lie. I didn’t know what to believe anymore and I’m not even exaggerating but I genuinely cannot. He spoke a lot, I did too, but not like him,his words just killed my heart haha🥲 he said he’s sacrificed soo much for me and this stupid relationship, and he was actually at peace the three four days we didn’t talk, mind you- it’s the same dude that said- ily ily ily literally three days ago. MADE me believe he’s never be an asshole again n NEVER give up on “US.” Cause idc how we are, LOVE is ENOUGH. The willingness to change for someone not cause you’re changing yourself, but cause your love is much deeper than anything else. I don’t accept any other theory, this is who I am. I will do anything and everything for the person I love, but all I want from them back is- love me the way I love them. So please this is gonna be a long post, but please PLEASE do read this and tell me if I should text him and ask how he’s doing or try talking him into this again?

Okay, so the reason I’m here rn, writing this is cause my boyfriend (now ex) told me I could use reddit as a safe space to vent out my feelings cause he did it once too. And here I am, hoping to find some answers or clear my mind cause idk what else to do.

Okay this is gonna be longggggg-

We met in middle school, he thought I was rude blah blah fast forward to high school. We were good friends tbh. And the we entered 11th grade, smth lit up bw us. There was also a love triangle haha, my guy bsf (let’s call him J) liked me and this ex of mine (let’s call him A) he was confused if he liked me or not. But me? I loved A. But we never really confessed cause, it was hard. My family completely against him, not gonna get into the details but it was HARDDDDD! Nobody would’ve gone thru the things we did but we did. He couldn’t confess cause I’d like to believe he was scared? But the truth is, he never really saw me as somebody he could imagine his life w. He was attracted to me but that’s it I think.

12th got over, then was a gap year, he joined clg and I took a gap year. During that time, my feelings surfaced again. By this point, both of us knew we had a thing for each other but never really confessed cause. Oh and, we used to hug and like put our legs on top of each other and allat shit during schl (WHEN WE DIDNT CONFESS) and tbh, he didn’t really care about me in school, he had other “priorities.”

Now the gap year-

Four months into it- we had a talk. I initiated, told him all about the other guy J, and it got him riled up and he made an angry confession. So aug 2024, got into a relationship w him. Fast forward- best thing ever happened to the both of us, I’m also talking for him cause bro- I was there, I KNOW.

June 2025 J visited me, and let’s say- that might’ve triggered tf outta him and we broke up haha, 2 months. The reason was- “I had a lot on my plate.”

Got back again cause I wouldn’t let go, two months of continuous texting n back n forth name calling, we got back. MIND YOU- WE WERE BEST FRIENDSSSSS! We ALWAYS got thru.

Then I shifted to another country for studies, so we did ldr. One year into ldr, broke up again. Initially cause I said, but I went back 2 days later cause I was idk in a STATE. He didn’t give in, and later on after a month, he didn’t give. Fast forward- went for another year.

Even when we were back in the same city, it was technically ldr. Never really met whenever we wanted to, had to sneak n shit.

But, 2025-2026 we met. Lot of hardwork honestly. He took a flight and we met twice. Cannot explain how happy we were.

Then came in life- his second last yr of clg, his placements n shit. I’m gonna be lying if I said the breakup wasn’t atleast 80 percent cause of his stress in life, even if he claims it isn’t.

I spoke to a lot of people, they all said- he will regret this decision. But I’m scared even if he regrets it, it’s gonna be too late. He’s always like this. It’ll only hit him after months. And what if I move on? Or worse, what if I don’t feel anything? Cause this time, I’m FUCKING NUMB. I just don’t know what tf to do