Just 100% ffffuck you, dude.
Recap: we meet on an app. (Never again.)
You say, "I like to give princess treatment." (Bruh, you haven't even touched me.)
You have an upcoming surgery and a lengthy recovery time. (Okay, understandable. I'm being patient.)
Due to unforeseen circumstances and no other options, I move in with you and your other roommates. I have a separate room, cool. I prefer that.
You recover from surgery. There's still no intimacy. You now say you don't even like being touched. HOW DOES THAT WORK for this?
THEN you find out the more emotional intimacy you build, the less sexual attraction you have. GREAT! A core wound of mine: being undesired. Cool for you discovering a piece of you (or straight up avoidance), but....
Are you fucking serious?!
"I'm sorry if you feel like a shoe dropped," you say.
It did. It has been raining motherfucking shoes for years. And I'm trying to figure out who the fuck I was in a past life? Stalin?
I decide since we never made it past the friend-like stage, that we should be just that: friends. While I try to turn off all my care knobs and cover bullet wounds with bandaids.
TH-TH-THEN... YOU... INVITE A GIRL OVER... TO FUCK... WHILE I'M WORKING. I can hear everything with headphones on and I have to put my callers on hold and my mic on mute until it's over. You just couldn't wait until after 5:01pm so I could clock out and leave the house?
I just sat there crying at the sheer fucking disrespect.
And it wasn't just that I heard because she was loud as fuck in all aspects. "I've been so wet the last couple days." /Gag/ "I know where you live and I could totally stalk you." Shrill laughter follows. /Fucking yikes/
I confront you after.
"It'll never happen again," you say. Dude, I can't be here anymore. The damage is done. Impact takes precedence over intent. This is not a "safe space" as you say.
I'm so goddamn tired of moving. I'm tired of no one being who the fuck they say they are (family, friend, otherwise) AND ME needing to rearrange my life over and over as a consequence.
I. AM. TIRED. Yeet me into deep space already. Fucking fuckkkkk!!!!!!