Running away from home
Im turning 20 in a few days
I want to runaway as soon as possible preferable in 4 days
Because I dont want to be here for my birthday
I come from a very strict Muslim family and recently they found out that I was outside picnicking while lying about being at work.
This seems like its not that big of a deal but this has changed everything. They have always been insane but they are threatening to send me back to my home country and telling me to block my friends and ive been very suicidal and they know that but dont believe in mental health. They won't let me move out but want me to get married and learn the Quran and they're considering an exorcism. I can only be glad that they left my phone (at my big age)
I live in Europe. I don't know if I can stay in my city.
I have applied for a uni and im starting in autumn but I might have to change schools because my parents know where It is.
They are very violent. They will look for me. And when they do, God forbid, I will suffer the consequences.
I have younger siblings and i know that what im doing is selfish but i am between that and ending my life. My parents are forbiding me from seeing my pauchiatrist and took away my antidepressants.
. Im applying for jobs.
I have my passports and I will collect the rest of my documents (birth certificate, etc.)
I have friends that are willing to let me stay at theirs
My mom.knows the number of one of my friends but thats it. She blocked her anyway.
I dont know what to do
I cant keep living like this
I dont have anymore space left on my thigh to cut into
Give me any suggestions or tips