u/CertainTemperature24

TW: sexual coercion/ brief mention of CP

I have not been in contact with my groomer since I was 13, he actually last messaged me on my thirteenth birthday. I am now of legal age as of last year.

There seems to be a trend going around where people post messages from their abusers on tiktok and it triggered something in me, so I got in contact with an old friend who was also groomed by my groomer and that was basically how I met him. For context we met on Little Big Planet in 2016. I would of roughly been 9 or 8.

I stopped speaking to him for a while but we got in contact around 2017, I was 11. and went from there until around 2020. He knew my age and I have screenshots of my messages stating I’m a minor. He used to ask me for nudes initiate sexual roleplay, he’s a bit of an incel so he also exposed me to alot of porn and hentai. From ages 11-12.

After me and my friend had a discussion I was determined to dig up old messages, and locate him. He hops from account to account and I’ve just been worried he may still have CP of me on any device he owns. I also desperately want to report him as I know his full name, age and rough whereabouts. I’m not as naive as I am anymore, but I did message him last night in hopes for an apology and things went south and now it just feels like I’m being led to feel guilty for him. And he doesn’t seem to want to grasp or admit that he was exploiting two underage girls, he treats it as if we were just friends even though I was in a relationship with him for easily 4 months at one point.

He wasn’t the first one to groom me, but he was the first with sexual intent and I feel like hes warped the way I see love, relationships and sex now in my older years. I feel as though now my teen years are coming to an end I’m “expiring” and not as appealing anymore, because I revolved my younger years speaking to old men online.

All I want is an apology. But I know its not right for me to be messaging him because hes clearly still the same old him, he makes me sick. But I can’t help but feel bad. It’s shameful really, I don’t know what to do.

It’s probably fairly obvious what I should do, but I don’t know.

TW : Emetophobia
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I’ve attempted to expand this so someone with emetophobia doesn’t have to read anything, I’m about 3 weeks into my first keto journey and today on my food-shop bought a konjac product for the first time and had them for dinner with chicken and broccoli. Its about 3/4 hours later and I am extremely nauseous and have just thrown up and from the view of the vomit those nood’s were definitely not digested in the slightest. I made sure to drink through out the meal and I do have quite a fibre rich diet anyway with veggies/fruit being the bulk of a lot of my meals keto or not.

Does anybody have any experience with konjac is this a typical thing? Because I’d be disappointed for this to happen again as they didn’t taste half as bad as I’d imagine, but happy for any other suggestions for pasta/noodles as I definitely would rather not have to experience this again lol.

The issue started with not being able to open up the Sims 4 on my laptop while it is not a gaming laptop, it has been able to run the game perfectly fine for the past year and a half I’ve had it.

It popped up with “Unable to start, Can’t run the Sims 4 with the video card in this system blah blah blah” so I charged my laptop thinking it may be an issue due to low battery? It did start loading up but failed and then the pop up came up again.

I then downloaded AMD software as my laptop doesn’t have a dedicated graphics card, it runs on AMD Radeon I believe, I know a little bit about tech but for this I’m absolutely useless, I have run the software and it’s saying theres an issue with my graphics device.

I’ve also had an issue where my brightness button on my keyboard is not working, I’m unsure if this is a related issue but any help would be great. :)

For reference I believe my laptop model is: HP Laptop 17-cp3xxx