I look at specs and prices DAILY. I am beautifully and wisely resisting the purchase, yet I romance with the idea all the time.
Also, worth noting that I'm unemployed, six job interviews flopped, I have last two months to find employement if I like rent and food. Putting therapy on hold because no money and all. 1000$ phone is absolutely a necessity rn ✌️
There's no particular trigger. I start crying basically three minutes into every session. It's intense and if I could, I'd literally howl. I never experienced something like this. Things I talk about don't really move me 99% of the time. I am aware that there's a lot of painful things in my experiences, but I'm used to them. Of course I cried in therapy before, but it was never that... absurd? I can sit at home and think about exactly the same things I'm saying to my therapist and I won't cry. Or I'll cry for like a minute. In therapy it's two sentences and boom waterworks for an hour.
One time I started crying in the waiting room lol