u/Careless_Cloud3073

Like example: their looks to their persona. An example is Bretman rock. Hes a dude but has this whole persona. I notice gay guys act the same way. They literally embody a similar persona.

But what about the guys that seem straight tho, but are actually gay? Why does another guy become like a girl and the other boy is just like a boy if they both like boys? Do gay guys mentally train themselves or something to be like a girl ? Or example drag queens etc. Studs also. Some studs will embody masculine traits. I guess im confused as to what thought process seems to literally change their facial features and mannerisms to make them come off as the opposite gender. Do they just identify as being the opposite gender like if they are a boy, inherently they just view themselves as a girl? Which makes them look and act like a girl over time , so they embody it? Like how do people just end up becoming flamboyant.

Being that the kneecap could potentially pop out at any moment, I wonder if this causes someone to have anxiety. Like because after it has already popped out, one experiences extreme pain, and therefore a person maneuvers their body to be more careful with how they move. Meaning restriction in one’s function. So being, that their the possibility of dislocation present if one is to “let go” and “let loose”, I am wondering if it causes one to become full of anxiety ??

I need to know if others experience this to. I feel alone in this.

Basically, when life calls for me to have to sit next to people when waiting for an appointment, I freeze up, feel like am hyper aware of the person (or people) next to me, feel scared of being awkward, which then makes me also tense up , making me feel like I come across as an extreme weirdo to the person / people next to me.

On top of this, It’s like my brain shuts down , I can’t think and it feels like everything gets blurry.

I’ll feel extremely stressed maybe anxiety feelings?

To make it worse, I’ll literally notice everyone else in the area just casually sitting next to other strangers seeming to be fully composed and comfortable waiting , while some of them arnt even talking to each other which shows to me they are comfortable even if nothing is said.

I hate this shit. I usually end up seating myself away from everyone or sit on the floor behind a wall.

Sometimes I’ll wear sunglasses to hide my eyes.

So they say beliefs create your reality. I am wondering about the psychological effects of believing in the “father” in Christianity.

I feel that genuine human existence in its healthiest (wellness) form is that of Love peace and harmony. Trust and safety, support, etc.

I feel that a real father is your protector , safety net someone you can lean back on , provider , etc. someone you can trust so on forth.

What does it do to a human psyche when they their “father” in heaven , is to be greatly feared and not trusted. Isnt fear the opposite of love? How your “father” will throw you to hell if you don’t love him …

What if the brain subconsciously relates the “father” in heaven to you real father (subconsciously) subsequently as a result of “imagination “ being mistaken for reality by the brain.

Doesn’t this cause a person to be unstable in their foundation and sense of footing on the earth?

I just want the perfect belief system thats gon make me fine anywhere i go.