I always assumed i wasnt an alcoholic because i don't drink everyday. I can't keep alcohol in my house without drinking it all the time though. Whenever I do drink, i drink way more than anyone else in my group despite being significantly smaller. I started a new job where the manager is pretty relaxed about people drinking drafts whenever they want to, and I'm thinking about quitting the job.
The time that really made me wonder if i had a problem was a few weeks ago. My roommates were grtting super drunk and i decide to have a glass of wine with them, but just one. I then started drinking their tequila. When we ran out, i went to the neighbours house and asked him for more drinks, which he gave me. He had to carry me to my bed at the end of the night and i woke up to vomit on my arm, pillow, and side of my bed.
When i told my at the time manager, he said i could've died. I'm starting to realize that i can work drunk or hungover and it's scaring me. Even though this bar pays the most out of my options, i think I'm quitting and taking a job at a hotel.