E2 or E4?
How I relate to 4: low self-esteem, feelings of being defective, unloveable, gross, weird, self-comparison, jealousy, intense shame, never feeling good enough no matter how much I push myself or what I change about my body or myself as a person. I built an athletic physique to feel better about myself and it’s still not enough. I’m also pretty emotionally intense even if I don’t show it all the time. I’m also more introverted than not I think. I’m also emotionally aware. I can also be quite pessimistic and reactive at times. I can have a temper and a sense of melancholy. I know it’s not worth focusing on though but I get moody. I try not to get stuck in bad moods. If anything I channel my bad moods and my self-loathing into pushing myself harder and being a better version of myself.
How I relate to E2: need for admiration, to be seen, to be loved, to be admired and looked up to. High emotionality, moving towards people, especially in stress (people close to me mostly) instead of withdrawing. I need to talk to others about my feelings and to release them somewhere. Whether that’s writing, listening to music or distracting myself with shopping, substances, adventures and acting out and having fun. I’m always put into leadership positions or assumed to be the leader in groups. I’m not usually giving unless it’s for someone I’m deeply attached to or to gain influence within a group. I was sort of champion of the underdogs in school (which made me consider so8 or sx6 but neither fit me very well) and I made people feel accepted and valued for who they are. I’m also sensitive to criticism. I worry about being wanted or needed by people and my entire sense of self-worth is dependent on people’s opinions of me. I enjoy being a person of reference, seen as knowledgable and competent.