u/CLUTCHLICIOUS

Nothing scares me anymore. The only fear I have is God. I'm hoping to help as many people ascend into this heavenly and liberating state of mind with me, which has given me the courage to open up about my internal struggles. As a suicide survivor who suffered from perfectionism and paranoia, my ultimate mission is suicide prevention. And since it's Mental Health Awareness Month, I'm asking for EVERYONE's help to potentially save lives. Let's turn this mission I feel strongly about into OUR mission. Because I believe the best way to prevent suicide - more so than even catching signs early - is to reframe one's mindset before those signs even begin to manifest. Please take some time to watch these 4 specific videos, which I wish I knew about when I was younger. I strongly believe they will help many people.

"You Were the Smart Kid. So Why Do You Feel So Lost Now?"

https://youtu.be/U4PsIm9dDvs?si=PAaBJrfWeNkvFZ4V

"Why Dumb People Make More Money Than You"

https://youtu.be/gfaykBPuFzc?si=2ZpgnzgPFFyeoM-3

"Every Level of Intelligence Explained in 9 Minutes"

 https://youtu.be/9\_cC-zt5yhc?si=OS6lzPsgvi3FOiaq

"The Universe is Conspiring in Your Favor | The Power of Pronoia"

https://youtu.be/J8yV4YU7faE?si=dqpzR05J-qUNNHw3

Please also take the time to read my personal journey through my recent Instagram posts (JanSport805)

I'm doing everything I can in my power for this mission I feel strongly about, including running a weekly local event for Super Smash Bros. Ultimate called "Friday Friendlies" (start.gg/SSBUFF) where it's not only a fun gathering of what was originally designed to be a party game, but also a safe place and support group for anyone struggling with and battling depression like I did.

Because I don't want anybody to make the same mistake I once did ten years ago.

Know that you are not alone in your internal struggles. It takes courage to reach out for help during your darkest days. I'd like to thank my parents, family, and friends for continuing to support me. Especially my mom, who is - by far - the strongest person I know. And I'd like to thank God, for passing down her strength and giving me a second chance. It took 10 years, but I believe it was in God's plan for me to finally be fully at peace with myself. Fun fact: I was born on October 10, so ten is now even more my favorite number.

I would also like to thank my older brother (who introduced me to Kingdom Hearts in the first place), who I took praise and attention away from our parents growing up because I was the favorite child who earned high grades. We may have grown distant over the years, and I may not openly admit to him, but I love him and admire his strength and resilience to navigate life more independently than I ever could have alone.

As as a science person, I think Earth is Heaven and Hell combined, depending on your mindset. And we're already all in it together.

If you really think about it, the concept of infinity and forever is something the human brain did not evolve for our fragile minds to fully wrap our heads around. Perhaps that was God's plan all along. My theory is that God didn't want us taking the forbidden fruit from the Tree of Knowledge to keep power all to himself, but because it's a curse and he wanted to protect us from insanity. Only He alone can bear the burden, solitude, and responsibility.

And since I believe I gained the ability to instantly transmute any doubts and negative thoughts into confidence and positive ones, I just want to help out as many people who feel like they're in living hell. For me, I fear God more than Satan. And that fear alone helped completely erase every other fear I had all at once. I'll be sure to keep it as balanced as possible though, because too much of a good thing - even Heaven or paradise - isn't healthy. Best to use Talk no Jutsu within good reasoning.

https://youtu.be/DkNdzhnQsEQ?si=Uv5mWbF4RsXZRJJY

Background music: "Magnetic" (instrumental version) by ILLIT (아일릿)