u/BuyWonderful

I don't work due to an illness (which limits my energy) and I dont study or belong to any groups as such. So therefore my time is basically free time from when I get up until I go to bed. No kids. A dog and husband.

I do all the home things. Housework, cooking etc.

But I'm bored. Bored bored bored.

I scroll a lot.

Sometimes I'll do a simple at home workout. But usually I don't even remember to eat until the afternoon and I'm ravenous so I'll just eat whatever's quick and easy on hand. Usually bad choices.

I don't really loo after myself. It should be easy. I've got all the time in the world. But I can't seem to pull myself together to be productive in any way even self care etc .

I do have autism and I am burnt out so perhaps that's something to do with it, whatever it is, I'm tired of living like this.

I'm inspired by the page and posts, I would love to create a routine for me - but whenever I write something down on paper and plan it out , I struggle to actually do it. Silly right?? Something I want to do... But can't make myself ? Idk.

If anyone else is in a similar boat or has any advice for something that may actually change my life I would love to hear it and have a great day tnx

I've never been good at making or keeping friends, and you know now I'm in my 30s I accept that I'm just different and that's okay. But it's the socialising and being apart of a world that seems inherently mean and cruel and I just don't understand it.

I feel like the girl in mean girls who makes a crying speech saying she wishes everyone could just get along (and then someone calls out she doesn't even go here) lol but yeah I feel like I'm her.

I don't expect everyone to be overly kind and caring but I just feel incredibly disappointed after interacting with the world. It seems most people's default is meanness.

I keep to myself and I think it's better that way. Especially social media. People can be cruel.

I wish everyone could just get along.