u/Buttercake-nymph

I planned to go to work after a few months, but it's impossible. 4 months in and I'm drained day and night. My husband got a huge promotion, so we decided I stay home with the baby. Baby goes to daycare 4x half days, but I'm still exhausted (from not having routine and a new life probably)

I need tips, advice, resources on how to make the best of this. I always wanted to be a SAHM. but settled for the idea that I'll be working.

Baby is quite easy now and I have time to myself, but I feel lonely alot and lost in how to navigate my day, my life and everything in general. I really want to try and give it all a positive twist.

so other SAHM's tell me your secrets!

Edit: Open to tips for my husband as well!

I became a mom four months ago and ever since I've become pregnant I've been feeling more and more off.

It started with an overbearing MIL and lack of support from people around me. But as I'm slowly finding my way into taking care of this little creature, this emptiness, anger and sadness don't lessen.

I don't bother/enjoy taking care of myself anymore and all my hobbies seem pointless. My mind keeps racing, yet I can't remember what about. I have time to rest, but when I do I don't feel rested. My eyelids are heavy and I'm dragging my body through the day, but what for?

But don't forget to smile! Cause this is what you wanted right? Aren't you so happy? You've got everything you prayed for! That's what they say, the people around me.

And then there is you, Depression. Somehow you never let me down. I know EXACTLY what to expect from you. You feels like a toxic ex that is always waiting around the corner, haunting and anticipating when I'm going to slip up, so you can sneak your way back into my life. I want you gone, but you can never let go of me.

My husband has never had any mental issues. He tells me it's going to be alright, that he loves me. He knows, but he doesn't know. He doesn't get that I don't want it to be alright. He doesn't understand.

and to be honest, neither do I.