u/Brilliant_Reason5192

I know I am, I gained a lot of weight since we first met because of a bad eating disorder.

for reference I’m 16 he’s 17.

Today I texted him about my grandma who said I have “arms bigger than my dad’s” (obviously not in a nice way) and I was sad about so I talked to him about it. He said she’s trying to warn me because I’m gaining so much weight especially in my arms and I look disproportionate. I know I do. I know I’m not skinny and I know I am disproportionate and my arms are too big but damn.

Hearing it from him was a different kind of pain.

I’m really hurt but I still appreciate the honesty.. I mean he could’ve just lied.. Even if I texted him because I just needed support.

Sorry this post is really random and doesn’t have a purpose I’m just venting again 😓

(for reference I’m 147 lbs x 5’5 but I have very big arms so I look bigger)

I have never been diagnosed with bodydysmorphia and I don’t know if this is what it is, but I have always felt like I have no idea what I actually look like. One day I look too fat, the other I look too skinny. One day my lips look too big, the next day they look too thin. My eyes look too small, next day they look unproportionally big.

I go from extremely confident to extremely insecure in a few seconds.. I asked my boyfriend a few times to describe me because I genuinely didn’t know what I looked like and he seems to not be able to understand it. He says to just look in the mirror because it’s not possible that “I don’t know what I look like”.

Then, I look in the mirror and it just doesn’t look like me.

Does this sound like body dysmorphia or Is it a normal thing for my age?

For reference, I’m 16 and I brush 3x a day. I never flossed (yes bad I know) and I just started yesterday. I got my braces off 3 weeks ago and noticed, after the swelling went down, that I have some pretty moderate recession on my gums. Is there any other reason this could happen except for periodontal disease? Dentist says it’s all fine but I just sent them the pictures and they didn’t visit me