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My father was abusive towards us and my mother finally gained the courage to divorce him but he loved me alot and I too love him , even though he wasn't there with me in my childhood.

Now as they are getting divorce , we are staying at my grandfather's house(mother's dad) and the ykw the worst thing is— if i don't like the curry I usually eat eggs as omlette, he asked me today to stop eating eggs. An egg costs 7 rupees dawg , i just didn't say anything I just kept staring at him.

It just broke me from inside , if I was with my father he would have encouraged me to eat more eggs as it was healthy , my grandfather didn't oppose me before but as my mom getting a divorce he is opposing this. He usually supports me but this broke me from inside.

I didn't deserve to be put with all this shit freaking shit

My father was abusive towards us and my mother finally gained the courage to divorce him but he loved me alot and I too love him , even though he wasn't there with me in my childhood.

Now as they are getting divorce , we are staying at my grandfather's house(mother's dad) and the ykw the worst thing is— if i don't like the curry I usually eat eggs as omlette, he asked me today to stop eating eggs. An egg costs 7 rupees dawg , i just didn't say anything I just kept staring at him.

It just broke me from inside , if I was with my father he would have encouraged me to eat more eggs as it was healthy , my grandfather didn't oppose me before but as my mom getting a divorce he is opposing this. He usually supports me but this broke me from inside.

I didn't deserve to be put with all this shit freaking shit

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My mother wants to take a divorce as my father is abusive and what not. He's an alcoholic, abused us throught our life and put us through hell. But when my mom asked me to stop talking to my dad , i couldn't do it.

I thought I can do it , he's still shit — but I have no idea why I love him so much , there's no reason. Everyone in my family thinks my little brother will get affected more if my mother takes a divorce but it's not true.

I love my father , even though he treated me like shit at some times , even though he doesn't take accountability, even though he drinks daily. I don't freaking know why I can't stop talking to him. He sends me money whenever I ask , it's not like my mom won't send she also does but my father doesn't ask why and he messages me everyday -" good morning , have a nice day , eat lunch " messages like these everyday

I was his favourite before my brother was born , after he was born , he loved him more so I became closer to my mom. But I will miss my father , anyone doens't know that I'm feeling this way.

Even if i explain all of this to my father , he just doesn't understand

My mother wants to take a divorce as my father is abusive and what not. He's an alcoholic, abused us throught our life and put us through hell. But when my mom asked me to stop talking to my dad , i couldn't do it.

I thought I can do it , he's still shit — but I have no idea why I love him so much , there's no reason. Everyone in my family thinks my little brother will get affected more if my mother takes a divorce but it's not true.

I love my father , even though he treated me like shit at some times , even though he doesn't take accountability, even though he drinks daily. I don't freaking know why I can't stop talking to him. He sends me money whenever I ask , it's not like my mom won't send she also does but my father doesn't ask why and he messages me everyday -" good morning , have a nice day , eat lunch " messages like these everyday

I was his favourite before my brother was born , after he was born , he loved him more so I became closer to my mom. But I will miss my father , anyone doens't know that I'm feeling this way.

Even if i explain all of this to my father , he just doesn't understand

It's very urgent , I need to earn ASAP

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This is gonna be a long rant / post. Please read with patience.

I'm 21  and in btech third year , for as long as i remember my father was a alcoholic and he used to physically and verbally abuse me , my mom and my little brother. We lost everything in the Covid, 3 flats and a own house , he became addicted to gambling and alcohol and he quit his job , he was unemployed for 5 years and he torchered us till hell. In Covid , he hurt my mom so much that she had to get stiches for her head. From then we were staying with our grandpa(mom's father) he is a retired pensioner but he also used to abuse us daily taunting that I gave everything to your mother(dowry) still she came here , what did I do wrong such that my daughter's life is spoiled. He even threw my mom out , inspite of all this me and family moved out in my first year of inter, then my father came living with me. Everything was good , he stopped drinking and all it was nice , but after completion of inter he took alot of loans and wasn't able to pay them off and he ran off to Hyderabad. We came again to grandpas house , this time the tantrums were even more like my grandpa was taunting us daily 24/7 , now we have acquired money for house shifting after 1.5 years. My father sent 50k for house shifting , but he again asked 20k in that 50k idk why he just asked and mom gave him. And he called today and again asked for 10k , I became alot furious i questioned how much more will you drink , I shouted alot . He also shouted but idk man , he scolded me alot saying : lanzodaka , nen pedte tintunav nuvvu , nuvvu aathu tho samanm , nuvvu bratiki waste low cgpa gadivi and alot. Now idk what to do , i just want our family to be together kani anyone doesn't fucking understand

Idantha kakamundu , from my btech my father used to be alot good with me like sending me messages daily and sending me money whenever I asked kani shit man asal intha darunanga ela untaru , he even cheated on my mom , my mom didn't leave cause society lo father leni children ante chulkanaga chustaru ani.

Prati danki money problem , bokka danikosam ma daddy medha depend avvalsi ostundi , nen earn chese dhaka ee torcher thappademo. Ma mummy chala great ivanni 25 years nundi baristundi

I feel this rage inside of me to hurt my father cause he is hurting all of us alot. And the shitty part is even if i wanna talk to him rn i can't cause he won't remember a single thing till morning

Tldr: family trauma's summarised version

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This is gonna be a long rant / post. Please read with patience.

I'm 21 and in third year , for as long as i remember my father was a alcoholic and he used to physically and verbally abuse me , my mom and my little brother. We lost everything in the Covid, 3 flats and a own house , he became addicted to gambling and alcohol and he quit his job , he was unemployed for 5 years and he torchered us till hell. In Covid , he hurt my mom so much that she had to get stiches for her head. From then we were staying with our grandpa(mom's father) he is a retired pensioner but he also used to abuse us daily taunting that I gave everything to your mother(dowry) still she came here , what did I do wrong such that my daughter's life is spoiled.

He even threw my mom out , inspite of all this me and family moved out in my first year of inter, then my father came living with me. Everything was good , he stopped drinking and all it was nice , but after completion of inter he took alot of loans and wasn't able to pay them off and he ran off to Hyderabad. We came again to grandpas house , this time the tantrums were even more like my grandpa was taunting us daily 24/7 , now we have acquired money for house shifting after 1.5 years.

My father sent 50k for house shifting , but he again asked 20k in that 50k idk why he just asked and mom gave him. And he called today and again asked for 10k , I became alot furious i questioned how much more will you drink , I shouted alot . He also shouted but idk man , he scolded me alot saying : lanzodaka , nen pedte tintunav nuvvu , nuvvu aathu tho samanm , nuvvu bratiki waste low cgpa gadivi and alot.

Now idk what to do , i just want our family to be together kani anyone doesn't fucking understand

Idantha kakamundu , from my btech my father used to be alot good with me like sending me messages daily and sending me money whenever I asked kani shit man asal intha darunanga ela untaru , he even cheated on my mom , my mom didn't leave cause society lo father leni children ante chulkanaga chustaru ani.

Prati danki money problem , bokka danikosam ma daddy medha depend avvalsi ostundi , nen earn chese dhaka ee torcher thappademo. Ma mummy chala great ivanni 25 years nundi baristundi

I feel this rage inside of me to hurt my father cause he is hurting all of us alot. And the shitty part is even if i wanna talk to him rn i can't cause he won't remember a single thing till morning

Tldr: family trauma's summarised version