Being alone is slowly eating me alive.
Hi. I’m iris 16 and I don’t really have anyone right now. I’m homeschooled and separated from society around 30 minutes away from the closest person to me. I have no social skills at all i can’t talk to people online i don’t know how to have a conversation I don’t know how to continue a conversation I don’t know anything. I’ve tried making online friends but I just can’t do it I’m always worried about people online first of all because creeps and also my social skills I’ve talked to easily over 40 people the past week on disc because that’s the only place I hear people talk about making friends and i haven’t gotten a single second conversation let alone a full conversation it doesn’t matter if I say I have bad social skills they’ll send a “hey” and I won’t respond because I don’t know how to start a conversation maybe it’s harder because I’m trans or something like that but this lonely feeling I have just eats at me and I’m now really feeling it every time I look on social media and see stuff about playing games with friends or having a group chat I get this feeling. So I’m trying to meet new people and I’m trying to get better at these social skills but nothing I do helps nothing I try helps I get so scared that they’ll lash out at me or something because I’m dry or I’m not good at this. I’m sensitive really sensitive and a empath and the internet isn’t a great place for people like that so I don’t send messages because I’m scared I’ll get talked trash about because of my skills. I don’t know much why I can’t do anything properly more of my lack of social life I never got as a kid. Anyways I needed to get this off my chest and it’s taking everything in me to send this. sorry if I wrote repeats or mistakes tend to do that. Thank you for reading