Can’t decide between VLEF and VLFE
Yeah so. As the title said.
The problem is that I feel like both fourth physics and fourth emotion.
In the physics department, I’m quite a messy person and I don’t really mind it. As long as I can still get everything done I’m fine. But I do love aesthetics and I dream of having an aesthetic life, though I’d definitely struggle a lot of maintain it. Messes don’t bother me much but i get annoyed when my mom (2F) tells me to clean them because i don think it’s important. I don’t really care about my health, it’s definitely not a conscious priority for me. Of course I’m not trying to get sick actively. I’m quite away of my body and what I feel, somehow I can feel an illness developing and take preventative medicine? I’m not good at physical things, I genuinely hate movement and exercise in general. It just feels pointless to me. I do not eat healthily, I only eat for pleasure and really hunger doesn’t bother me. If there’s nothing fun to eat, I just don’t eat. My sense of aesthetics and lifestyle is very very easily influenced by those around me and i always pick up the habits of those of higher physics functions around me. I’m very materialistic, I love money, and other things but everyone loves money. I want to have enough money that not having it will never bother me again and then never think about it. I’m very focused on accumulating more money, but paradoxically I always tend to give my money to friends in small amounts if they want it. I give things to my friends pretty easily, I’m not stingy nor am I territorial of my stuff. I just feel as if I don’t have the power to defend myself. I don’t really care about my appearance but I do think I could be prettier.
In the emotional aspect, I’d never use my emotions to influence any of my decisions. I’m a very bright person who’s quite dramatic on the surface but most of the emotions I present I don’t actually feel. I struggle to understand the emotions of others or even caring about them but I still try to do so. I want to be emotionally intelligent but I’m not. I’m not emotional I’ve never been emotional, as a kid i could never cry for more than two minutes because id get bored. I don’t have to actively suppress my emotions much because I don’t, have many emotions. Whenever I watch an emotional piece of media I find myself crying, not because I feel sad I just cry? If I want to understand the emotions of others I have to spend a lot of time thinking about it (relying on higher functions) and I generally just like to be direct and ask how they feel. I’m very interested in how others feel about me and I can be quite a romantic at times.
Neither blows to the physics or emotional area really affect me. If I was called ugly, I guess I’d be bummed. If I was beat up, I’d just take it. (Once I was being strangled and I just stood there lmao) If someone attacked me emotionally, actually I’m not sure what that’d even be. I don’t spend much time thinking about either physics or emotional. Actually the only thing I think is actually process is my 2L. I’d type as 1F but there’s about a 0% chance I’m 4V.