u/Biryani_withDietCoke

Yesterday was actually a decent day for once. I(20M)genuinely thought maybe life was finally calming down a little. But today everything crashed on me again and now I’m sitting here trying not to break down because I know if I start crying, I probably won’t stop for hours.

Everything feels heavy lately. Friendships. Expectations. Loneliness. My own thoughts. All of it.

What hurts the most is realizing how unimportant I seem to the very people I would’ve done anything for. I supported them, listened to them, stayed there during their bad phases, cared deeply about them… and somehow I still ended up feeling replaceable. Like my presence only mattered temporarily.

And the worst part? I don’t even show these emotions in front of them anymore because deep down I already know they won’t understand. Every single time I try to emotionally open up, it either gets ignored, misunderstood, or brushed aside. So eventually you just stop talking and start carrying everything alone.

I know I’ve made mistakes in life. Some pretty serious ones actually. But I paid the price for them. I’ve suffered, reflected, changed, learned. And despite everything, I still never intentionally tried to hurt people the way I’ve been hurt.

Lately I’ve become colder and more irritated around those “friends,” and honestly? I don’t even regret it anymore. Because when I really sit and think about it… what have they actually done for me except make me question my worth repeatedly?

I’m exhausted from feeling emotionally stuck in a loop where I keep hoping people will care the same way I do.

And maybe for the first time in a while, I genuinely don’t want to settle for less anymore. I know the kind of person I am. I know the loyalty, effort and emotional depth I bring into people’s lives.

I just want the strength to finally leave people behind who only know how to make me feel alone in crowded rooms.

TL;DR: I’m emotionally exhausted from constantly feeling replaceable and unimportant to friends I genuinely cared deeply for and supported. I’ve stopped opening up because I feel misunderstood every time, and lately I’ve realized I don’t want to keep settling for one-sided friendships that make me question my worth and feel alone all the time.

So please drop your BEST music recommendations: English, Hindi, anything honestly.

For reference, I usually like stuff with good lyrics/emotion/vibes more than just noise. So recommend me songs that genuinely made you feel something.

So I went on a solo date today because I genuinely needed some peace. Life’s already been overwhelming lately and I just wanted to sit quietly, enjoy some good food and spend time with myself for a while.

I placed my order through the dine-in screen helper. My order was simple:
2 burgers
fries
a large coke

The staff member helping me suggested espresso by tapping on the coffee option. I clearly denied it and told her I wanted coke instead. I specifically remember checking the screen before paying because I’m careful with these things. It said coke.
But when my order arrived, they gave me espresso instead of coke.

I politely confronted the staff and they immediately started insisting that *I* had ordered espresso. They kept repeating “No sir, it was espresso in the order.”
It honestly frustrated me because I KNOW what I selected. But I was already mentally exhausted before coming there and didn’t want to spend my energy arguing in a café over a drink. I just wanted one peaceful evening. So instead of escalating things, I ordered the coke separately again.
Then came the second issue.
15 minutes passed. No coke.
I went to the counter.

“Just 2 minutes sir, we’ll bring it to your table.”
Another 30 minutes passed. Still nothing.
Meanwhile literally everyone around me was getting their orders normally and on time. At that point it genuinely started feeling disrespectful. I went up again and only then did they finally bring it immediately.

And somehow it still didn’t end there.
The same staff member then told me:
“You made a mistake by ordering espresso earlier, you should check more clearly before paying.”
That annoyed me because I DID check properly. I told her that and she just stayed silent.

Later I was finally trying to calm down, slowly eating my food, using my phone and just enjoying whatever was left of the experience… and one of the servers literally came and tried to take my food away assuming I was done eating. I had to stop her midway.

The entire experience just felt so uncomfortable and dismissive.

Maybe I’m overthinking it because I’m already emotionally drained these days, but the whole thing made me feel like solo diners are treated differently sometimes, rushed, ignored or not taken seriously compared to groups.

I went there looking for peace and somehow left feeling even more exhausted.

So I went on a solo date today because I genuinely needed some peace. Life’s already been overwhelming lately and I just wanted to sit quietly, enjoy some good food and spend time with myself for a while.

I placed my order through the dine-in screen helper. My order was simple:
2 burgers
fries
a large coke

The staff member helping me suggested espresso by tapping on the coffee option. I clearly denied it and told her I wanted coke instead. I specifically remember checking the screen before paying because I’m careful with these things. It said coke.
But when my order arrived, they gave me espresso instead of coke.

I politely confronted the staff and they immediately started insisting that I had ordered espresso. They kept repeating “No sir, it was espresso in the order.”
It honestly frustrated me because I KNOW what I selected. But I was already mentally exhausted before coming there and didn’t want to spend my energy arguing in a café over a drink. I just wanted one peaceful evening. So instead of escalating things, I ordered the coke separately again.
Then came the second issue.
15 minutes passed. No coke.
I went to the counter.

“Just 2 minutes sir, we’ll bring it to your table.”
Another 30 minutes passed. Still nothing.
Meanwhile literally everyone around me was getting their orders normally and on time. At that point it genuinely started feeling disrespectful. I went up again and only then did they finally bring it immediately.

And somehow it still didn’t end there.
The same staff member then told me:
“You made a mistake by ordering espresso earlier, you should check more clearly before paying.”
That annoyed me because I DID check properly. I told her that and she just stayed silent.

Later I was finally trying to calm down, slowly eating my food, using my phone and just enjoying whatever was left of the experience… and one of the servers literally came and tried to take my food away assuming I was done eating. I had to stop her midway.

The entire experience just felt so uncomfortable and dismissive.

Maybe I’m overthinking it because I’m already emotionally drained these days, but the whole thing made me feel like solo diners are treated differently sometimes, rushed, ignored or not taken seriously compared to groups.

I went there looking for peace and somehow left feeling even more exhausted.