u/Big-Warthog-4834

21M, 173cm and 89 kgs (last checked yesterday)

Completed 3 months in gym. Tho the goal isnt reached i did cut down somewhere between 30 to 35% body fat and i started at 40% and around 89 kgs. Tho for a long time im stuck on that weight and its genuinely demotivating cuz no matter how hard i lift or how many steps i take, i wont look as good as those gymfluencers on instagram. There are nights where i cry to sleep cuz it genuinely feels pointless to push my body beyond limit when i wont even get the results i want so badly. I want to look good in clothes. I want to be able to attract people. I want to be able to develop charisma and my character. I see others in my gym. They are jacked, they have low body fat, they look attractive and i look at me. Im tempted to start taking PEDs to get result. And i will pay any amount of money for that. I just want to experience a normal life. Im such a chud for even saying this but since my adult life started i havent really experienced real friendships or relationships cuz i feel like i dont deserve that unless im attractive or successful. I want to look handsome and jacked.

HI! 21M here, currently at 35% body fat at 93 kgs and 173 cm and vegetarian and going on recomp. i have been lifting for 2 months after 3 years so i guess im an experienced lifter cuz 3 years ago i was consistently working out for around 8 months.

been eating 150 gm of protein thru

150 gm of soya chunks per day

along with 2 scoops of nakpro impact whey

and rest is covered in carb sources like whole wheat products like chapati or noodles and rice. im eating around 30 gm of fiber per day as well.

and i have been going thru this diet for 2 months now but after doing some research i found out about the phytoestrogen. even tho i shouldnt, i went ahead checked for warning signs on gemini and claude ai and they said i should eat around 50 gm per day at best if im consuming it everyday. but i have been rotating soyachunks with paneer as well but fresh paneer has high fat and i have to eat around 500 gm per day to be able to eat around 150 gm of protein.

after going thru the subreddit to check whether 150 gm of soyachunks is normal or not for consumption i found out that a lot of people struggle to eat that much which is understandable cuz it tastes like cardboard but i have been coating it with schezwan chutney or msg or even using pasta sauce to mask the cardboard taste. i also saw one or two posts about getting man boobs which is giving me scare cuz i have been eating like that for a long time and idk

so my question is should i continue to eat 150 gm of soya chunks to complete my protein goals or will it affect my body by giving me "man boobs" cuz im getting a scare over here.