This is my first post here and I feel kind of embarrassed to ask. I am a cis(ish) woman in my early 30s and I have known I was bi since high school. I have had relationships with both men and women. I have tended to be a bit more on the submissive side with men and dominant with women.
For the past few years, I have noticed another kind of attraction emerging, and it’s almost eclipsed anything else, to the point where it makes up a lot of my porn viewing and that is topping a person who identify as a femboy. A lot of the porn I see of them is being penetrated by a man, but I keep imagining myself as the giver wearing a strapon. When I see feminine presentinf men in the real world, I find them really cute and attractive but they’re probably all completely gay.
I feel really confused by this at times, but on the other hand, my attraction to men/women is even split, and this scenario in my head feels like I’m getting both things I like: intimacy with a man whose anatomy I enjoy (penises are hot 🤷🏽♀️) but I also get to be the more dominant partner with someone feminine. Do any other cis women feel this way? Are there femboys who are attracted to women? I feel like a weird crazy pervert writing this 😖
Also before I get dunked in the comments, trans women are women and I am very physically attracted to them the way I am with cis women but thatis not the same thing as what I’m talking about here.