u/BeingBetter04

You deserve to know you caused me nightmares. You deserve to know I never lied and I always fought for us while you belittled me and told me the cruelest things that still play in my head. You didn't want to buy me flowers. You didn't want me to go to the gym with you. You were incapable of helping me by rinsing your dishes, putting your dirty clothes in the hamper or even putting trash in the trash can. You deserve to know I am so afraid of you that I still defend you when people talk shit about you. I genuinely wish I hated you.

You made me feel small and worthless. You punched the bed, you threw things at the wall within a foot of me, and you hated me. You blamed me for telling one person how you threw things. You took my dog from me. You took my strength from me. You took any ounce of strength I had. You implied I was stupid. You made fun of my intelligence. You couldn't even take the trash out. Living with you was always unbearable. Life with you was so unbearable that I went to 3 different therapists. I just want to feel like me again.

I think I've posted on here before. My ex and I broke up 12 hours after I got home from being gone (very unexpectedly) for 2 weeks at my parents. He threw laundry softener, detergent and scent beads in my direction.

I talked to the property manager because he is making things complicated for me to get the last of my things. I have a snake, a tall plant shelf and a few other things to get. He messaged me earlier saying I lied about him throwing things directly at me. I corrected him saying I told the property manager that he "tossed" 3 objects onto the bed and they hit the wall and him tossing those things scared me. That is exactly what I told her. I spoke with her (the property manager) and she said he told her "I threw laundry detergent towards her". That is completely different from what I said but it is the truth.

Honestly I've been having nightmares all week about what he did. It may not be as scary or dangerous as other people's experiences but he threw a gallon jug of fabric softener at me while I was on the floor crying. I haven't been able to get more than 5 hours of sleep a night. I am terrified. I am 4'11" and he is 5'8" and he was in the military and lifts weights everyday as he wants to have to upper body of a body builder. I am absolutely terrified.

He tried to lie saying I said something different and telling me how I am making him look bad. I have no sympathy knowing that he told her that he threw things towards me. I am almost home free. This is a very sad and traumatizing experience for me but I am almost done! I am moving 1 hour away from him and closer to my family!

You Did This Not Me